Finali finished watching the Green forest dvd le...last 7 episodes are so tearing and touching lor..the characters inside reali dun look like acting , looks so natural & real, brings me in the serial too. Reali envy the female lead gt 2 princes charming always be with her..Will real "OWEN" reali exist? So sentimental and affectionate and guys can reali turn me on when they noe hw to play some instruments like violin and piano esp woo..imagine jay chou no nid too handsome jus can mesmerise me wif sound of music heehee..ya most gers gt this fantasy abt their prince ..mus blame the tv ba keep givin us gers out thea this kind of "fake" impression haha.The ending is well-wrapped up and brings a tinge of mystery..well i nvr fancy taiwan drama serial but this time i changed my opinion! Ya of cos i cried like mad in frnt of the tv like a fool ha. ''/ Emo sickness bac again but well during this period cant help ba! Ha mayb i shld set up another blog to enter all my more complicated, unsatisfying and even more SECRET tots....lidat can hav 100 more personal blog liao! Only 1 reader dats ME ?! Mus reali thank the founder of blog, write manual diary is definitely nt safe lo..as long as no one noes my blog existence, secret can be kept of cos wad i typed in here i still hav reservations, i sure it has its risk somehw! Everything has pros n cons ma!

I duno i shld believe wad i read in the chinese newspaper! Since the diva Lydia Sum passed on, everydae in a column there will be a San Shi Shu (ancient chinese strongly believed whateva happened to you in ur 3 lives previously are reflected in this bk, jus use your D.O.B and find out your chinese 8 characters..for eg.. to be exact my bdae is on 4 jun but chinese calendar its termed as 5 Yue Chu 3. (GUI) - as in ghost in chinese.. i read cos everydae they will show diff things abt ur previous life..say i curious , superstitious oso can, i jus join in the fun to look thru mine..i remember 2 of the most vivid things -

1. Hw u died in ur previous life ?

Ans : I died in the war as a loyal patriotic soldier, and during dat time i was so poor and cant fend fo myself..

Current feeling : i feel so sorry and sad for myself!

2. Hw was my family backgrd ?

Ans : my family was very poor and i hav to toil and slog in the fields for a living..

Current feeling : i feel so helpless...if this were the case y mus i so-called suffer this life..??

Dun worry i nt obsessed by these facts ! Plainly sharing!

Ppl can get wad they wan thru hard work (dun mention born wif gd life de), hav a happy r/s , earn lots $ , gt bf /husband to fetch them to n fro frm work or driving own car! I still remember when i was young (sometimes even nw) i used to share wif my frens - aiyo y dat ger looks ok only gt bf fetch her frm car (jus a normal car) den we can be driven in a sports car le though i dun look some fairy or wad la, average ger wif average looks and fig but wif oustanding personality and appearance - referrin to my height hurhur (kinda bad to tink n say that ger..well we called it jealousy more den envy ba..dats 1 of us gers inborn bad pt haiz)..always angry for that poor guy y dat ger keeps throwin temper wif her so-called mood swings , her bf so stupid (yet tender and lovin) to giv in to her, hw come sucha nice guy she encounters nt ME ..sobx.. and well i jus live in my fantasies and envy lor while watching the korean dramas and DREAM ON.. (well...secretly say here, last time esp on rainy daes, all these tots will jus come to my mind unknowingly)..ya ya frm thea will be more emo and keep blaming myself..but wads the use rite? Past is past but hello nw i am reaching the 3s... arghhhhhhhhhh..STOP dwelling on my own sad and wasteful years of limited youth! Duno issit the guys in my company blind or jus wan to get into my gd books, 9/10 guys say i dun look my age lor..ya despite i tall lah! Blame on the rainy daes recently reali makes 1 emo la. *sniff sniff*

Though nw my achievements are nothin proud , though i finally realise i hav to strive hard to gib myself a better life ..these few yrs are jus passing time dae by dae..simply hated that JEN lor..feel so confused and everydae go to work, hiao outside, weekends jus wait for parents to da bao food bac etc etc... i dint reali contribute to my family yet kinda take them for granted..i duno wad my 2 siblings tink, but cos i da jie ma so i be more vexed den them? Or they havent reach this phase yet?

Nowadaes very busy @ work and go bac straight hm will be so tiring and reali feels so tired can jus doze off on my bed...besides class i rarely go out anymore! Funny lo work nt that stressed jus busy, sch wk is ok but yet the travelling is hectic, keep missing my MRT stops to go class..guess its body tiredness..but come to tink of it, i reali sleep alot nw leh! diong~wad happen, wads happening?

I reali hope someone can come fwd to tell me - come let me carry ur hidden burden, i will help u...gib me ur hand ! Hur hur..sounds like a parent wanting to help the child to carry sch bag...ya sch bag..i miss my sch bags and sch daes. Recently found out that one of my mod lecturer could be 1 of my ex unit CC husband..kinda same pattern , very naggy , slow @ pace when teachin..i nt bein sarcastic but its a hunch.. but i dun wan to clarify hoho!

Can blogspot do somethin ar... i need more colors to express my entries leh!