Oh i gonna buy bac primose evening pills frm GNC, cuz is a member so i can replenish...2010 cant afford to be frail and weak..mus build up my immune system..tired or wad will still eat abit to hav energy to WORK! Ya nt dat i dun wan lead a norm biological clock system, its time dun allow me! sobz! But if it can be the biggest heal to my sadness..i shall dwell on this!
Quite shocked me and Rx can hit off so well though 1st impression she gave me was DAO..so looks can be deceiving la..she is married and had a cute bb gal called Alexis..and she yr 88 de! I am a failure rite? hurhur!
After pubbing at 3 am+ and Elvin drove we 3 gals + Jasmine go chong pang eat nasi lemak. Duno y mayb the click all young peeps..i feel so young wif them ard! And everyone dun believe my actual age. Most of them said despite being tall, i looked like a 26 yrs old babe..hee..thanks meaning i nvr invest wrongly my hiao prdts..no wonder can be SASA VIP member haha! Even a totali stranger who came to Ah Na's doorstep to convince us t donate $ to help the SG cancer society..she tot i 26yrs le..so is dis my age as deemed by others? Weeeeeeee..make me so happy!!!
Reached hm 5am..Elvin sent me hm 1st since nearby ma..i tinking wanna jus catch a wink or jus b zombie for 2hrs b4 meeting Lixian for Mac fast..yesh gt a special ECONS class due to lecturer nt free changed to sat 9am or due to cny ba!
Guess wad.. I dozed off den rushed to mit LX. Lucky still in time and i promised Heuer to giv him morn call - my 84 xdd classmate..he can click with me so well dat he wanna ask me be hie jie jie..i rejected cos i feel dat.. i dun wan go thru the "evil cycle" again! If u noe wad i mean!
Called Heuer ard 745am and he reached class 930am, da bao Mac bfast for him and he so gan dong LOL..he reali made my dae..felt so comfy with him and this rs quite weird..as in nan de we can click so well and he do listen to me hahha..and told me if he drive to class he will send/ fetch me on weekends.
This comin sat is LX bdae..we planned go JB after ECONS class on thu but LX parents disapproved cos they worried abt safety issuw so Heuer proposed stay in SG ba,,he planned to buy a cake and do somethin to surprise LX, he told me when its my tur he will oso cele wif me with the rest...sweet rite! Such a sweet di di dat suddenly jus popped outta nowhere.. I be seein him often den the rest cos he is the only one who take the same specialized mod as i am but he majoring in Hospitality Mgt. He said on thu he will send me bac no worries cos i am his beloved sista! All his words and actions seemed like a cycle to me - as in EL and I shared dis special feeling and rapport we had..i feeling frm Heuer..i will draw line though i noe we jus hav tis strong chemistry as frens dats all..both of us oredi hav someone in mind but both of us story abit same - like someone wif no outcome de..i told him geez of my saga..he said i damn brave and said mus look upon me as eg..he v cute de la..will save notes for me when i late for class, leave an empty seat beside him unless reali no choice..he late or wad! He will msn me ask hw am i etc..very concerned for a newly know fren!
Ah Na , Ser , Trish, Cz , Justin and Cuz all agreed dat if reali my fate lies in the hands of a guy younger den me and i shld accept jie di lian..so common nw ma..i told him i ok but at least dun look so kiddy and behaves so childish and no more younger den 5 yrs old. Mavis current bf is this case and she oso worried ppl gossip abt her but her beau hmm chao lao lor...she oso agreed so she said mayb some ppl are jus deem to attract younger ones de. We shall let things go naturally!
Frm nxt sat onwards every wk 4 lessons - wed, thu , sat and sun! Siong rite.. i guess i reali need to plan my time properly and impose some work solutions at work. Thanks Paige for helpin me crack ur brain shells too! I am like a walking zombie nw..work , ot and class..soon grp proj with Heuer and LX will hav to start.
V stressed again cos dis fri my POA sub paper..though i nid ard 30 mks to pass overall..I am still worried..i hav to be self disciplined again to study again..its tiring and tedious to rest and set ur hp alarm to remind urself to wake up to study but when the moment u stepped outta the exam rm..i will noe whether i will pass or fail..and seein the results make me so satisfied cos my time and efforts all paid off! No matter hw hard.. i will force myself to go thru..haiz..all dis gd classmates only will be here for dis yr..not all takin till degree prog..even Heuer told me he gg Perth /Sidney to study degree. Haiz. LX plan go enrol NUS or wad.
New mods hav started le..v chim and reali v bz ..my mind cant absorb fast..I am tryin my best..and somemore somethings kept lingering and i keep forcin myself to EMO later or rather no time for dis! At least i noe he is livin a happy life and havin a blissful marraige =P Duno wanna reali believe the zodiac and horoscope forecast for yr 2010..mama bot the bk said this yr I dun hav any luck for romance..jus focus at work..gonna be hectic..yesh i agreed dis cos 2 more projs in Jun..him2 wont be here by dat time i tink! But hor the wan bao said the opp le..gt romance and found the rite one gd yr to tie the knot le..i noe it wont be ME la..suddenly i am jus so scared to get married..can take weddin pics , doll up nice dats all and mayb cohabit? Ha my parents will kill me!
Jus nw Dad suddenly came into my rm ard 11 pm and tot i dint hav dinner..they came bac 10 plus but i was in my rm ..he wanna ask me eat somethin concerned i gastric prob again..I jus said eaten le..thanks dad..when i felt ur concern i so wanna cry !!
After class , v gd gal took a bus frm Yis Bus interchange to go find AH Na, @ 1st so wanna go back zzz till nxt dae so tired..eveyone was a zombie in class lo..all our morn faces shld hav taped dwn! So diff frm we saw each other after work! Oh gt this classmate Amery who lived in JB de xdd..will drive everydae..he told me and Heuer dat he will send us bac if he nt mettin gf and no duty..Awwwwwwwwww so sweet rite! I oso nvr ask him for a lift le..dat dae i bot 3 buns frm 7-11..he said he hungry so i offered him one..he so happy..reali xdd ! =p
Ah Na told me to take bus 39 and i totali concuss in the bus with my mp4 and shades on..lucky i still gt dwn at the rite stop..Nua at her hse awhile...den we went AMK community hospital to visit her bud Glenn..poor guy met with a motorbike accident and he slowly recovering but still suffering frm serious memory loss..hope he can get well soon..actuali i v scared go hospital after seein my cuz ..*phobia*.. Can see Glenn's wife is nt havin ez time takin care of the 2kids and a MIL i presume! But she looks like a tough nut to crack besides the tattoo on her la like da jie da! She is a lifeguard so i guess she reali even stronger den me! Jia you! I duno y recently if on the road see a happy couple or family..I would feel so emo haha! *teary* nt envious totali but its more to let me realise they can be family /couple mus b nt ez ..esp for us women! And esp wad Trish told me wad she doin in US everydae - cooking mama, hsehold "maid" and mus fu shi lao gong everydae..whoa i startin to tink i am gonna suck big time @ dis role!! =X and she reali tryin her best to fulfill all dis as a wife! Jia you sis..hope u njoyed urself @ Las Vegas, dun play play le..i duno when will i get to go lor!
Gonna study till thu..and try spend more time wif family and dearies..be it financial / emo suppt..i try to do it all..I shall do all dis when i still can!
Ya happy with my new specs..most said look prettier and even younger - a new look cos i cut short my hair ma..dun look so weary though I am ! I will nu li bao yang lo..tired oso hiao all dis to maintain youth.
Nxt time can go Sun plaza SASA and buy my hiao prdts..Long Live SASA..love ya! =D
Thanks Ah Na for sendin me bac after the suki sushi - standard drop le haiz and attitude prob.. i totali concuss in the car..too tired le..sorry!
Gonna zzz nw..felt so zombie le!! Later gonna study like mad again..accs i reali nt so much confidence cos u cant jus crap with words and theories!
Congrats Ah Na 2nd bb gonna be a gal..as long as obedient and healthy more impt le..=p
Dun too upset cos its still reality u hav to face. Can see Tiff reali growin up fast nw!
Duno y office can use web messenger le..so i can chat le..dun dare park too long..thanks Leen for tellin me!
I do hope can see him2 online again even 5 mins but i noe it wont happen for nw! well shld nt be too greedy..wad will come will come...
