Attached are some pics of my god-daughter Nikki 1 mth old pics =) Managed to upload after abt a week le.

Emo Part 1
Suddenly emo again..haiz..
Really missed those gd old daes -us
walking in the rain sharing umbrella, happily chattin, always by my side..
watching movies together, share ups n dwns le..I will nt forget wad u have told me b4..mus b happy most impt
always willing to talk to me, listen to my probs..give precious advice, long hrs of talkin on the phone
noe hw i feel, antidote to my sadness..
happy moments will always be remembered.. u take care =)
R we driftin apart or still close in contact..tink of u ..i reali emo lor =(
Abit regretted wad u told me and i chose to act blur..
time cannot buy bac anything..wads lost is lost..only can hope for the best in future. Are u feelin wad i feelin?
Where are u nw ? Can u hug me or lend me a shoulder to rely on & cry ? I seriously nid a hug so badly le.

Emo part 2..
i have done wad i can done...are u still angry wif me for nt spendin more time wif u..wad u wan frm me ? Ur time reali cannot compromise and everytime u emo, u tend to say hurtin words which u urself duno..like dun care abt u le...all words no action, no sincerity. U very mood swing le..i dun mind u can vent ur frustrations on me but nt to the extend like u say till i totali neglect u..mayb when u happen to b readin dis..u sure b worked up! Pls do not ok...I am lots emo den u..but i choose to bottle up..i simply dun wan add on to ur burden..doesnt mean i dun care..can u pls get it straight in ur hd? If u keep tinking this way...as long as u are happy u can do wateva u wan...sick n tired of sayin I nvr make effort le...I cry oso hide in a corner dun let anyone noe lo..dun expect u to feel or noe wad i gg thru..jus hope u wont misunderstand me further!

Emo part 3
trying to eat and sleep well..so far doin it slowly..trying my best
work sucks and i reali dread gg to work...
those officers reali an eyesore le..wastin our tax payers $
reali wan get outta there asap ..sobz.


Emo part 4
lotsa uncertainties in life le....no one noes wad will happen to my life when i stepped out of my obstacle.
This is the 1st time i really feel so emo and can dun eat for weeks, survive only on drinkin. I try to dun tink so much...i nid to calm myself dwn and analyse properly my route...I wan to do things that will make me happy..ya everyone keeps saying life is short n unpredictable, jus cherish wad u hav. I Know ar...but who will reali cherish me ?

Hope few mths later when i read this page..i wonder hw i will feel @ dat time le. We shall see.

Last fri went Kenneth's hse to chillout with my clan for a mahjong session..of cos i jus sat there and watched my frens play lol..His hse is reali damn big lor..lucky his dog is those very tamed one.. =) Fengming da bao some "wu xiang" frm her parent's stall..so yummy le.. thanks gal! Reali no mood to go de but the 3 gals keep askin me to go lor..
After dat had supper and Jay sent me hm. Reached hm ard 4 am plus and feel very emo lor...haiz..sorry bud for the harsh sms-es =( Glad u dun take it to heart. Recently i jus kept crying cos feelin very emo le.
Sat woke up early to go dear's Sis hse for BBQ..simply no mood lo but still put on a smile and go lo...Ya it was raining and we had BBQ under a paviliion @ her Condo. Damn low lor..cos i was feelin cold, sad and moody..and somemore i cannot say anything..i jus sat there and ate my food le.
Reached his Sis hse..rest a while and played board game..kinda tiring and borin i mus say..but i jus accomodate the others lo...I hid my tirin face and ate dinner and went to sleep very early..Kinda very very low cos had a tiff wif dear over some bo liao issues which i think he reali think too much le...sounds familiar..bud keep saying me oso...lol
Sun woke up damn early again..noon went strolling wif dear and his sis and bf @ West Coast Pk..wanted to rent bicycle but there is no bicycle- kiosk so ended up @ Mac to hav some snacks..Headed bac to dear's hm in the evenin..so tired...I fell alseep in the cab. Upon reaching dear's hse..i jus went to dreamland automatically!
Mon bluesssssssss..went office damn sian..and still nt enugh rest...see my bud so sad i oso dun feel gd..haiz..duno hw to console him and there is nothin i can do...if he nids me to b there, i will as his best fren le.
Will pray and chant hard for him le..hope he can pick up himself..though he dint talk to me and wanted to b alone..i still will worry for him lor...Did some urgent work and simply no mood to work thruout.
After work, met up cuz for dinner @ Orchard....walked ard..dint reali buy things except some necessities..She bot 2 pairs of shoes and she was saying she was buying more den me again lol. I swear i did try the shoes but they are nt comfy le. Took train hm, had long talk on the phone wif her after reachin hm..dint realise my hp low batt liao..mwahahhahaha...we always hav so much to talk abt... =)
Cuz - i will sure heed ur advice de..i will nt torture myself..watever happens...its the path i choose myself in the end...hugz.
I tink as long as bud feels so sad..i wont feel gd also....nothin will cheer him up i guess.I noe he is bottling up and choose to ignore..i noe if he breaks dwn dats it le...For me...am i really thinkin too much?...havin bad headache le and u can tell so late @ 238am i still bloggin... super haiz.
Btw..happy 22 yrs old sista..so fast man...