Its been 4mths i stopped blogging..cos i dun hav the mood and also effort to do it..this blog had been with me for 4yrs..omg..mayb time to chg to a new add ..but i am jus so nua and so many things to move over..the happy and unhappy events all in this blog! I will jus ignore the typo ..v tired to vet!!! No one be readin oso i guess..


i shall make it as 1 of my 2011 resolution, perharps? I really duno where to start frm..all updates and shoutouts can be seen on fb so needless to post pics.. mayb nxt yr den start b hardworkin like last time!


Todae feel like bloggin cos feelin v upsest!! I can say worst den my breakup period..I feel so lousy and I jus feel like gt out of here with him if we hav the extra cash!


Been 8mths me n him togther..i frm dun wan accept him to lovin him so deeply nw..all the happy and unhappy stuffs we been thru, small and big quarrels we had dat made us understand each other..of cos till nw he dunno i hav a blog.


I can only say with him ard..i feel so xiao nu ren , feels so safe and protected and accordin to his sis..i hav chg him to a better person who will hav goals and fight for his living. We learn and grow with each other..
Best part, we always hav common understandin and right freq..and sometimes our telepathy really v strong! I duno this is really my fate but i hav made up my mind to be with this man forever. I m nt jus blinded byhim but i hav observed him - his charac and temper..all i can accept...Till nw we still hav some minor issues.. but those were actually his tenants prob..i can only say he is too nice as a landlord.. v sick to argue over this so let it be ba!! =S Whatever i hope to get frm my past rs.. i am proud to say he had done it mostly.
I finally got a bf with car and able to fetch me as and when he is available and love me whole heartedly =)
He is really attentive to my needs , those who went out with me will witness and buay tahan us.. sticky glue cos we dun meet each other often..but we still hav own personal space..we agreed on it le.


Events I went thru with him :
Our 1st happy genting trip though the nite b4 we quarralled over some stupid tenant issues again..and my mesnes came along the way..felt like killing myself dat dae..after dat my 1st time to enter a casino after so long..and we won abit of $$ enugh to spend the short stay thea. Overall , it was still a last min sweet trip.
We decided to ignore all calls cos we were really tired, wanna a brk..upcomin be thea again, cheap and free from those rubbish again.


He bot a car jus for me on my 29th bdae..i was so touched =)
In Aug - he quit his drivin sch job cos too many politics for him handle and with dat salary..its really pathetic.
I helped him send resumes..and keep encouragin him..dat period was hellish man..lotsa quarrels oso plus my hectic work period. Finally a very last min offer b4 he was abt to sign with a hotel job..they offered higher pay and the following wk he needa be in taipei for1 mth trg..I dun wana him go cos we jus started togth only..sure will miss him like mad..but tinkin for his career. i act da fang let him go..he been thru alot and we web cam to keep in touch plus the 10 over calling cards i bot..and we can still quarrel cos again he too accomodating , piss me off!!! I almost wan brk off with him..and i almost went mad oso..and i drove him mad too..........dat 1 mth he been thru the trg oso nitemare for him frm lodgin to workplace to food to colleagues.. only can say ren zai yi xiang sure get bullied. I got Heuer same job as him and they become colleagues.. I oso duno wanna regret ask H to join in , they sometimes buay gam @ work and both said dun wan me b sandwiched~~~ of cos i jus listen both sides to b fair.. i noe both their charac..i take it as i am their whining target dats all..Things gt a bit better when they are bac in sg.


I rem the dae finally he b bac..i got a fever and raining heavily...took panadols @ work and chiong cab to fetch him.. he totally lost weight..and this guy rather dun eat much and buy stuffs for me to compensate the 1 mth he nt by my side.. =S I m touched and speechless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nw i dun ask much abt their work unless he updated me himself!


He taught me prawning and fishing..frens shld noe i dun belong to such categ..hurhur!
I know he tryin to spend more time with me and tryin let me stay over when possible.. His off daes v hard to accomodate me cos i cant expect him off every weekends. But he will make effort come find me late supper or wad. *loves* He is wrkin for some tw bubble tea and stupid boss keeps pressin them for sales and wadeva ideas we can come up off..they jus nvr accept the idea..den ask for FXXX.. In tw make him take tests, rem the recipes well..come bac sg, they hav machines to do so and nt really need to memorise. I have tried my1st cup and sometimes he wil buy me oso as and when!


Jus had a chalet with Ah Na and family and frens to pre cele Uncle Vin bdae..a short stay but had fun with the kids esp TIFFANY my darling! Attended Serene's weddin and be jie mei and Kris Hse warming party oso..mit up with Elvin with Dear for some drinks and we realized we are nt so into drinking anymore. Upcomin event in Jan- attend Elvin weddin..sincerely hope he and Saralle can hav happy endin after so many yrs of drama..


I dun like takin pics often nw cos i feel like i look CHUI , partly mentally tired and v v fan over many things. He dun like me pull a face and rather i smile and laugh loudly when be with him..I m tryin my best until last sat i realized its gonna be so hard to see my smile anymore.


Finally we came to a conclusion we wanna settle dwn and ROM in Mar 2011, we did a lot of research esp me during office hrs surf net find info..we kept it low profile cos when cfm den intend to inform my frens.Lucky we did nt announce on fb or wad..sianz..

Both if us wanna plan meet the parents session and try to make it a convenient dae for both parents and finally put it as this comin sat but nw is cancelled.

I told my mum we wanna ROM and @ 1st she said go ahead and she dun wan banquet..gave me all sorts of excuses like wanna zz early , dun like socialise..all dis i noe cos she is my mama...after she bring our names and date of birth to go suan..come bac with a damn result..she says the person ay rooster fan tai sui and only hold rom and weddin in yr dragon 2012..FXXX it la! its like 2yrs later and by the time hw old am i liao..I dun wan rush into weddin den giv birth. I thot wanna do all dis by mar nxt yr den i can focus at my studies...@ 1st i jus take it as it is..but later came to my mind dat..there is no birth timing where gt zhun the results..me and HIm had a big quarrel cos he v sway la..bad dae @ work..damn boss keep pressing for sales and keep comparin to KOI..$%^%&^* and say nt earning $$ but they everydae sell alot cups of bubble tea oso wad..Ma de!! They work so hard and dun get appreciated !!! *angry*
My mum say all to do in 2012..i hear le gt upset with her and told her my plans , she said NO means NO..i jus cant b bothered to ask which place she go suan when dun hav proper calculation and forecast. =( I received alot of advice and poor DEAR called to tell dinner cancelled and his mum scolded him for nvr givein to me when quarrel..he dun wan tell his mum the truth scared she disappointed too..and i din noe all dis till we quaralled and he blurt out.. i feel so wrong so guilty and went to find him after his work..and damn it..raining lo and i got drenched ..wad a dae.. i waited for him outside his shop and explained to him..he sms me in the train he wanna hav a brkdwn soon abd lucky i was on the way to find him which he dint noe.
I oso wanna brk dwn soon , nt dat i m dyin to marry him , partly i realise i really cant communicate with my parents esp my MUM. All along she and me buay gam and i try my best talk to her less and less conflicts..i so upset i dun wanna ans her calls when I @ his hse ..I rather he go work and i waited @ his she for him!! She din make effort to suan properly and tell me a valid reason..be it la..after a long talk, Dear oso angry say wan find other ppl to suan la..with our birth timin this time.. prolly nxt mth ba..if results still same ..we wll take the 1yr plus to plan and save more $$...@ 1st she asked us go rom and honeymoon weddin..nw she wan banquet and keep harpin only 2012.. i jus feel dat she dun care for me @ all..in her heart only my sis n bro..haiz. Nvm i also dun need her attn @ dis age! Cant be bothered to talk her at least for sometime i tink!

If the results is positive.. den another challenge to convince her.. i hate it to talk more den 5 sentences to her..dun get it means dun get it..Y other ppl hav understandin parents.. I DUN?????????????? Seein ppl so xingfu and havin gd life. really envious..only happy thing is i found DEAR..=p I promise him to be more cheerful. Work being sandwiched by 2 bosses but i dun care la..i m sick tired.. jus do my jobadn wait for mthly pay..dun wanna chg job as its irritatin to go interview and this mood.. i tink i better stick to this rice bowl 1st.

I jus hope he and I can spend more time togth and cut dwn on unnecessary disagreements.. we will plan more short trips or precious moments togth. Thos who dun understand me as a fren or long time no contact or due to some miscom..i dun wan clarify and explain..really v tired..those who really noe me well..i oso needless to say @ dis pt!!!

I only can say i wanna get out here fast and really do wad i b happy doin..with him by my side~ saometimes wanna confide in him, he will worry so much abt me..his work oredi so tiring and inflexi..thanks to havin a car if nt he late night come i be more guilty..even jus an hr supper he see me he oso happy..silly rite?We are a silly pair who love each other so much..

Mayb AH Na is rite..my mum tiks we too fast to get married and gav me dat crap or even so, she shld jus explain properly..nonetheless nt impt..it reminds me when i was young..ask her somethin she always say no to this no to that...i shld hav kinda get used..but i thot yrs later...things will improve well.. i guess even i get a deg , she also wont praise me a gd job done.. I study is for my sake and for a better life dats all! And i learn to pull thru her cold water remarks. =(

I hope DEAR faster settle his work issue and this ROM thing temp be shelved aside ba...to create more tiredness and i really worry we too weary to do anythin esp ME.. he held my hands yest while drivin and told me nvr to leave him cos he will go mad and he really love me.. hearin dis.. i cried again..even @ work todae and nw thot of me..tears jus flowed dwn.. wad did i do wrong ? or Y cant we get things our way?!!! Tks to Cuz frm viet holi still whatsapp me and worried abt me.. really appreciated to listen to me !! Thanks Ah Na and Uncle Vin for ur console as always =) Nvr eat and zz well oso dun dare tell him ..i dun wan add on to his pressure lvl le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!