ZHAI NU NVR GO OUT EXCEPT WORK N WORK..so i will write all my feelings den.. haiz.

Duno why this whole week getting very easily irritated and lethargic..yup i still hav lots work to clear but somehw in my heart jus feel so "vexed"... u can imagine somemore "my da yi ma" first dae le..*pain + fed up + work stress+ sub cons givin me prob + issit him1 keep calling - even its jus like 1 dae 1 call oso pisses me off. I nt going to praise him for making effort nt to call but everytime my hp ID shows his name and no..i jus feel like answering the phone and scold %##% & jus slam dwn, but its waste of time & breath..can some fairy god-mother make him1 disappear frm my life or jus help him find another gal ? I tot of changing number but i reali like this no... we see hw it goes ba.. MY uncle is asking me y my face looks so serious n sour each dae though i gt make effort to doll up. Though i am jus a mrt stn away frm hm and worked so late..he asks me let who see ar? =___= and i told him the reason lo..he feels kinda pissed off and says if he can do anything to help me "fan off" him1..he will lor but this is still my own personal issue. Luckily still hav him such a gd listener. Recently keep joining him and some frens @ our mini " yellow box" and seems like they are tryin to pair me wif one of the guys called Des. Can make frens la but i always act blur when they ask Des to sit near to me or always wan me take pic with him. Dat dae we did take once le but its nt nice cos its taken when we are nt prepared, but still send to him lo as he requested..he even wan those i took wif uncle and my bangla engr..he says he wan keep but i told him siao ar..dun hav him le..hahaha. And so coincidentally, all of us stayed betw semb- wdls le except uncle. Des is the mid - Admiralty. He says he may buy a car & can fetch we 4 gals to work but the 3 gals say fetch me gd enugh le..( All 3 gals gt bf- envious~ , 1 even gettin married nxt Jan) duh~ well Des is oso nt tall like him2 haha.. y are SG guys all shrinking ? And des can join in and say aiya y tell Jen..she noes my plan le haha...well i jus act blur thruout ..anyway my mind oso whilrling round & round, dun reali hav the mood to listen to them.. Wau lau lidat i cannot find bf le..even i dun mind shorter guys ( diff cannot be too jia lat), they oso mind lor. Sobz. >""<
Todae i sms him2 i nt feeling well and moody..he oso dint reply my sms..ya la i noe he busy so i sms ..he told me he gt see all my sms sometimes too busy to reply or nt convenient @ wrk. Den i jus told him passes ready..and he suddenly sms me dun giv any1 the passes cos he wans collect personally and still say cos its to let me see him hahaha..Such a lame and corny and kns words frm his mouth still makes me happy though be it sweet talk..i jus need this "antidote" @ dat point..ya call me crazy or wad ..but it reali motivates me to even slog harder @ work haha. I still sms him thanks for the white lie..i sure he nt happy when seein my reply but i jus knew it la..

Tomoro is 2nd time to attend the board mtg with director and the rest of the safety commitee members..kinda feel like "octopus" when preparing the slides in office jus nw... feels kinda pek chek y simple thing i oso cannot do..haiz. Lucky my engineer is patient wif me le.. i reali hav so much to learn lor..reali nt easy le..i will put my heart to learn and pick up soon! After tomoro, nxt mth is i hav to face the music alone with boss le. Hope everything turns out smoothly @ the mtg..

Recently my sis keeps using the phone to "sweet talk" and makes me "shi mian" i still hav to put ear phones and listen to my own music and put on my eye mask frm thea..i jus dun wan pick up a fight..ya i noe.. my temper damn damn gd.. so i jus choose to set up all this " shelter" and my hse everywk got this "uninvited guest" of hers. =( Simply dread it! Mayb i shi lian le so hearing those abnormal "sweet nothings" pisses me more n more jus like Him1.
Ya...mayb kinda mixed feelings for him2 again cos he left 1 wk in semb le.. duno he will make more effort to come my office but i jus hope he can keep in touch with me.He is reali a gd fren i get to noe in semb...though we are "ai mei" de yi dui~ Yeah 1 thing happy abt dis sun is i get a chance to go up the ship - 1 of the proj ships here in semb for 3 yrs..the works all done finally..of cos this is the ship him2 is workin on these 2 yrs =) But he wont be thea cos he belongs to sub-con side. My company treats it as a family dae gathering and allow us to go up this ship to tour ard and i will definitely take pics. Its a lifetime experience thingy man! ..chey i tot it gets to sail but better den dun hav. Boss, me and 2 other Bangla engineers gg up too..heard gt wide spread of buffet too ! They all tease me to wear our safety coverall go and i jus refused to budge teehee. Yummy~ real lookin fwd and well after dat mayb go bac work abit.. well.. since i gt nothin to do..OT on weekends to earn more $.. i realise after the national rally - $$$$$$ is EVEN more impt to me den anything else! Dun worry i hav nt reached the mercenary stage haha..i wont allow myself too! Bleah! >____<

20 Aug is Darius bdae but i gt class so will mit up for dinner with him soon =) Happy bdae cun zhang! Thanks for always listening to my prob n nonsense ...
though u cannot cele ur bdae..but we will still mit up de.. thanks bro =)

Time to zzzz..reali dun wan be panda *roll eyes*
Phew! office flooring reno done i can hav some peace and air con again~