I heart this angle hee ..mei mei ma ? hee

last min b4 gg hm take de.. the gal who took 4us cnt focus in the dark & we nt ready yet.. haiz , my mouth so big la!

bad angle but no choice.. very few ppl noe hw to reali take pic..

Todae is the 5th dae of CNY..so fast le.. and i realise i reali dint step outta my hse bai nian except chu er..went Semb dats all.. reali cannot feel the mood @ all.

Thanks to cz who called me.. we had a long chat till late nite ..thanks for ur concern..u reali can sense i nt happy wor cos of so many things, nt jus fan abt rs.. hurhur~ ya mayb due to bad weather and i on off binge on the new yr goodies.. my sorethroat & cough is still "torturing" me. But i still "hoot" lotsa water. Ya new yr supposedly throw everything behind and starts afresh.. i reali try but i nt emo this time.. i jus feel sian and lethargic. Besides the weddin dinner last nite..Xingfu de couple who dated 9yrs and so lovin till nw..reali happy 4her. Suddenly got an urge wonder when is my turn hurhur~ I tink my appetite stopped. Thanks Shihui (the lady in black tube in the pic) and bf Wilfred for giving me a lift hm..they are the nxt to get married soon.. Ya even Manfred nagged @ me nw..say i may suffer gastric nw.. I oso duno why i so fan over dis and dat lo.. worry for fren.. tsk tsk when i know he jus needs me to standby..so i tell myself i wont be obligated to do so much beyond my care anymore. If no function or wad..i reali dun hav the mood to reali doll up myself.. but recently reali fell in love wif dresses..duno wear to where.. 1 yr hardly hav any big event.. Ha Manfred and i so telepathy i online he online w/o i telling him..thanks for chattin wif me fren ! He reali hope i dun keep harbouring the tot - as long as my frens/ loved ones xingfu i am contented.. those dat i keep worrying and qian gua de ..time to put dwn my emotional baggage le. I WILL TRY !!!!! Give me time.

Last nite went to attend 1 of my gf wedding.. quite a grand 1 @ holidae Inn atrium.. u be shocked to hear this..i brot along cammie but but.. i dint take any pic until i self took one in office.. reali nt ME lo.. ya i hav to agree i really dressed up to the nines but simply no mood take pic. So tough luck ar..even the bride and groom pic i nvr take , dun mention food.. wad happen to Ah Jen who always like to camwhore? well well.. reali dun hav the mood la.. Haiz. Hope Serene sis can find a new job soon..reali nt easy..Sidney recession reali jia lat. Hugs.. Sis i sure u can overcome this hurdle.. i be wif U.

Jus nw suddenly got a tot wan to see my old pics..happened to go thru some foto albums got me and him1.. i reali look so plain jane but the smile me and him put on were so xingfu de.. haiz. And i realised i still hav lotsa things i havent throw le. Todae jus nua @ hm and watched the dvds i borrowed frm ah na.. havin my own space and time is reali precious~As long as i am hm nw..i dun even wana go out for dinner.. rely on my parents to da bao 4me.. sorry folks~ they can tell i gt no appetite so bot 1 popiah for me.. *touched*

But 1 thing so happy..i borrowed frm ah na de dvds got my 2 most loved actor - Louis Koo and Nic Tse. Reali heart them esp Nic.. frm he jus joined the entertainment circle..i suppted him till nw..be it wad happen to them or they aged.. =D I am still their silly fan hurhur~

Nw channel 8 every sat i get to see Nic again..abt hw he go to Cambodia to help out the needy and experience life documentary... he is so handsome and charming..reali feel so heart pain for the kids thea, fending for themselves. Ha if possible i reali wana be Mrs Chou , Mrs Xie , Mrs Koo..aiya i mean my future hubby surnames.. mwahahahaa. Hearing abt Nic's life story reali adore and xin teng him nw..nt everyone born frm a silver spoon is a happy kid and hav a gd life~ Poor Nic.. tsk tsk.. reali hope his Bb Lucas Tse Zheng Xuan will grow up and be filial to him.. ok la i dun reali like Cecilia ..but its his wife and the woman he loved.. i hav to respect dat oso =D

Nw reali can be more zhai nu le.. but i tell myself if i reali were to go out, i cfm will doll up mei mei.. cos wana feel happier.. weekends TV shows esp at nite nt bad..but noon till evening mus prepare some dvds if nt reali suck thumb liao.. hurhur~ Read abt 09 forecast , nt very good..but i am nt gg to read to much..wad will come will jus come..cant run away! Jus got to recover fast and work harder @ work! *bonus* awaiting ~~~ For him2..a little bit means alot to me le..as long as once in a while sms me/ call me/ pop by i wont ask for more. He again msn me this noon but very fast offline.. *ming bai*

Reali shi mian again..ah na says sick mus rest more, no excuses.. Yes mummy.. i will rest more and love myself more..if i dun dote on myself.. who will nw? New yr ending in a wks time..so well jus hope everything goes on smoothly for my dearies =D

2nd dae of CNY dats fast wor.. haiz. But seems like dis yr i reali canot feel dat its CNY..simply no mood @ all and jus feel like nua-ing @ hm. No need go far bai nian oso.. Looking @ my shopping "conquer" i reali felt so sian.. Afternoon went to my Da Bo's hse (dad's side wif all other relatives) @ Semb awhile and came bac hm.. We da bao KFC for dinner!
Yest met up a fren (an NSF frm Army in my dept - Manfred) go cwp watched movie - THE PUNISHER.. a very action pac movie wif lotsa bloody scenes.. well i still can accept it... I love mafia shows !

We went to Swensens for dinner and there is dis Malay young couple wif their BB boi.. the BB eyes were very big and Manfred wanted to play wif the BB ..mayb he was shy den started to cry non stop...everyone turned ard to look @ us. His mama gt a hard time to coax him. I told him to concentrate eating..He told me norm BB will like him de but i told me thea is always 1st time Bb dun like him lol.

We wanted to hav ice cream @ Swensens but cos of long queue outside..we decided to be considerate and adjourned to Gelare. We shared 2 scoops ice cream sundae and chatted away those daes we still in ARMY till the place da yang.

Due to limited place to continue chatting..we stood outside BREADTALK and talked for 1 hr plus.. the cold wind was gushing away but we jus continued to ti ta... He oso agreed i shld leave him1 long time ago..and said i am reali silly..
This meet up was an abrupt 1.... last time in camp we rarely talked to each other..recently he added me to facebk and msn..frm thea chatted abit.. and exchanged hp no. He asked me wana join him for movie.. since i got nothin to do and only CWP.. i obliged to it w/o any hesitation..and he immediately fast fast chop chop bot the tics online haha.
Well me n him are reali frens..pls hor i dun treat as date , rather as a norm fren mit up. When he offered to send me hm..cos i told him i wana walk hm and take a breather.. he felt dat its nt safe so he offered to walk wif me and still assured me norm if late and he will send his ger de frens hm and only 1 time cos jus purely frens. I told him i can manage on my own and he jokingly suan me.. aiya i reali nt gg to woo U or wad , frens ma.. den still joked saying for the past 8yrs only 1 guy sent me hm dats y i might find it weird if other guy de frens offered dat gesture. I told him no la..i nvr worry he wans woo me cos its outta the qn , i jus feel like walkin alone.. but since he insisted.. i obliged la.. while reaching my hse dwnstairs bus stop..i helped him to flag a cab and went hm myself.. =D We agreed to mit up with the rest of the guys or we can cum out for dinner again.
This is hw 1 dae is gone~

After msn wif Trish yest.. i told her hw i felt for my nxt rs (in years to cum ba) - i told her once i found some1 who loves me.. i will jus marry off le.. cannot waste my youth anymore.. he loves me more better cos the risk of he betrayin me is less ba. Its a selfish tinking but i reali got no time to lose.. haiz.
Rite nw.. i will jus focus on work /studies..dun even wana tink abt rs.. tot of wana go watch movie wif frens todae..but i scrolled my contacts.. mostly are either married or attached.. single de left a handful but they oso nt free for me so i jus seek refuge @ hm ba.
Oh while talkin to Cun zhang.. him2 msn me..we chatted awhile *happy*
Mayb i shld reali kick off the habit - always tink /worry too much for others.. esp those dat i reali care.
Tomoro needa work.. i try force myself to Lala land ba.. surely no mood to wrk de. duh~

那一條牙膏 在對我傻笑 嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡 想鬧就鬧 好快樂少了人嘮叨
藍色的碗盤 多買了一套
我忘了沒人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就喜歡 有你的撒嬌
我想我能熬 但是至少要讓我知道 你好不好

我們的小狗 食量變好小 眼神裡常常顯得無聊
它習慣睡覺的床尾 少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

我在搞笑 卻在最后 眼淚拼命掉
你的離開 失去多少 我計算不了
忙完了一天 突然覺得又何必辛勞 對誰炫耀

還在搞笑 是否擁有 麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌 卻避不開 催淚的曲調
我徹夜胡鬧 希望聽到有人會提到 你好不好



Gao Xiao 搞笑 - Luo Zhi Xiang 罗志祥

Rainie Yang - Dai Wo Zou 帶我走 -

I oso hope someone can bring me away~

Rainie Yang - Zai Ni Huai Li De Wei Xiao -

I heart my new toy LG KU990R
I heart this pic..taken by him1 =D

I will shower U wif all my LOVE =D

Happy 2009 ppl ! Hope this yr we hav better luck in everything ya. Though seems like every part in the world is havin crisis - be it financial , natural disaster, global or political issues.. we still hav to live on..isnt it.. unless the whole world jus vanished lidat.. Haiz.
Dint realise 1 calendar has been changed hurhur! 1mth nvr update bloggi..partly no mood and oso no time due to wrk.. i oso duno where to start liao.. suddenly very lost~ Last yr Dec very bzy wif heavy workload, attending weddin dinner, studies - very less hiao-ing too~ Can see my sub-cons oso rushing work @ site... they still so wu sim keep bringing their company's calendar and diaries to give us.. every yr we wont be short of it de hurhur.. i prefer cartoon de so GQ brot me a cute one.. jus norm cartoon cos i told him i dun like scenery or boring de and i will go buy myself..den he says his company oso gt some cartoon de so he got for me.. =.= asks me save $$ and can treat him dinner.. =.= Ha got 1 company gave us some sexy model pose de..my boss banned the safety guy to giv him, me and the new gal.. and my boss oso so sweet..i jus lamented on his self made calendar ..so many nice pics den he said can make 1 for me..i jus need to send him my 12 fav pics and he can do it for me (he so secretive asks me to his rm to tell me dat? duh~).. but i keep forgettin and i told him to forget abt it.. he says he waited for me to send le..hurhur.. *pai say*

Well..to end the year..worked non stop as usual.. but gd news after 1 yr plus in SMOE - I GOT PROMOTED to executive level - Safety Admin Officer cum secretary !!..ya kinda fast i dint expect lo.. but i wont hav anymore OT claims liao..got increase my salary le.. sobz. Well guess i am quite blessed liao.. =D I will strive even harder. When Boss passed me the letter and expects me to open immediately..he jus says nah 4u.. hope u be happy.. i jus put the letter on the table and continued typing lol.. he says i am reali a workaholic man..tsk tsk..

On the last 2nd dae of yr 08, him2 is reali so funny..he happened to hav dinner wif GQ and suddenly sms me - dear i wif GQ nw...did u jus sms him? i said no le... i find it weird.. den he called me all of a sudden which he wont (oso no time to do dat)..he told me he saw GQ smiling happily to the sms ...tot its me..so he askin me noein GQ keep sms me dat few daes.. i jus told him i dun sms GQ after work de and i wont sms things dat make him smile so sweet...den we chatted awhile..b4 dat ya him2 said he wanted to send me a mms.. i said ok..when i opened it, its himself posing in his car..subj - finally u hav my pic..happy ma? duh..i replied send to me for wad.. he got so pek chek asked me if i dun like jus delete it ba.. den he called me lo and asked me tot i would be very happy to receive the mms.. i was dumbfounded.. duno hw to reply him~
He sounded so excited and happy ..i jus told him i rather take a pic wif him.and suddenly he sounded very serious and keep explaining his hectic work @ site, mtg everydae , asked me to be understanding and he knew i would be la.. den he told me he gt no ear pce yet still risk himself to call me (but talk thru speaker phone). I jus say ya happy to hear frm him.. and can tell he reali happy abt it.

Ok last dae of the yr - worked as usual..my SE hp been wif me for almost 3yrs liao..suddenly jus died on me in office.. haiz.. after wrk i jus rushed to cwp M1 shop to buy a new 1 oso to upgrade plan. Due to heavy demand.. only left this pink color LG KU990R (bro got a white one) and hearing nt bad reviews.. i bot it @ $188 =p So far i heart this new toy ..everything is gd..trying to get used to touch screen phone and no WIFI only regret!

New yr jus stay @ hm and played wif my new toy until dwnstairs got ppl jus shouted happy new yr den i knew 09 has jus approached.. i dint watch count dwn shows on telly..nothin fanciful. Suddenly received sms frm GQ and him2 wishing me happy new yr late @ nite.. they are the most early ba.
3rd dae of new year..him2 sms me in the evening ask me to mit him for awhile for drinks cos he only can spare sometime for me.. but bein nice of him..he said if i am nt gg out later, den its ok , no need jus cum out lidat..i told him ya i am nt gg out ask him njoy himself.. lucky he dint meet me cos he last min got a surprise haha. *contented liao to hav this attn*

Com dwn for 2nd week of the yr..sianz.. =( can only play com in office le.. but too busy to surf net oso.

Went to this restaurant @ THE CATHAY - INDULGE wif Trish..both of us @ last go to a place no need to pa shan se shui de.. lol. Nice ambience.. and the staff reali went xtra miles for their cust svc.. they called me 5 mins ago i said i am on the way on the escalator.. while walking towards the restaurant, 1 of the staff greeted us loudly - Good evening and welcome Ms Jen.. i was abit pai say..cos everyone knew my name. Food portion was ok for me or for ladies.. creative dish settin and we were still wondering who Chef Kevin was thruout.. hurhur~ Tasted yummy too.. we had herbal chix soup filled with a unique slanting bowl, tempura chix, she had the signature lobster spaghetti.. woohoo.. =D

Ya den came the JB trip wif Shanna , her hubby , biaomei and BB tiff. Biaomei last min went to mit her beau so left 3 of us...Ah na promised will bring me in JB if she is gg in.. I only bot some new yr biscuits and 1 pair of shoes.
Well to sum up the entries..
Happy Niu year 09 everyone..hav a gd year ahead..mine nt so promising ...dun care la..as long as u all live happily and healthy and xingfu.. i somehw feel happy la. Very happy for biaomei found a bf who dotes and loves her =p
Gg to hav reunion dinner wif dad's side family later.. luckily its @ semb cos kinda no mood go out..ok la..less emo for me for year 09 but i will definitely wan be a workaholic, super career woman.. promotion hard to come by lor. I dint noe Far east plaza reali got lotsa things to buy..unless u every shop go in and xplore ard.. thanks to Ashley Cuz and Biaomei ..we reali combed the area well ..and i did impulsive buying for $400 lidat.. no need bai nian duno buy for wad hor..but shopping temptation rules over my emo-ness and mayb i wanted to vent it out on shopping.
3 dresses - $300 +
2 dinner bags
some accessories
1 nail polish
1 belt
1 halter top
reali regretted.. cant refund leh.. goto to live on grass liao.. =(
This is reali unlike me..no matter hw bad mood i am..i wont "torture" my wallet..ya shopping kills all unhappiness but dis time i reali hated myself for squandering so much.. hurhur. Buying for CNY is definitely the best excuse..sighz

New Yr 09 resolution :

1) Earn more $$ (pls..nt to indulge in impulse buying but to save more for rainy daes)

2) My driving licence (bro passed 1st time , sis took advance le.. i mus jia you)

3) A super duper career woman (work smart, play hard attitude)

4) Hope all my frens and dearies hav ever lasting happiness & gd health.

5) Get my degree cert, find a job overseas so that i can xplore more outside..

6) Hope him1, him2 be happy thruout wif their lives (if ever 1 dae no more contact wif any of them..as long as they are xingfu).. i am contented !

7) I wont hanker after romance.. work , work and work.. dun mind hav a boring life , once in a while mit up my dearies / frens and continued to bao yang myself.. let myself become more young and pretty.. till nw i reali quite "lost" for my singlehood..

8) read up more gd books besides on being a beauty junkie, self enrichin very impt too.
9) study even harder, take more courses..learn and learn.. =D

10) spend more time wif family while i can still be ard wif them and be filial despite hav to hear unnecessary nagging @ times etc..