Ongoing swaynesss~ haiz. =( Siannnnnnnzzz
Well..this week consider a very hectic week, lotsa paperwork, packin , attend mtg & hav to rush out the mins, OT all e way... *cough cough*
Well, i on MC todae.. my cough reali bad lor.. and since i have cleared most my urgent work - i decide to take a rest. Yest wanted to giv Boss sign my OT form as usual lo, he rejected me for 1st time le and kept chasing me hm.. and he left office with me and the new ger. This time round my mins nt so smooth cos tink i oso reali cant focus fully.. he dint blame me and instead go thru everything wif me and helped me type... hmm..reali "blessed".. ok promise nxt mins i will put in my utmost effort.. quite disappointed in myself leh!

Actually i can go to work todae but duno i overslept till 730am cos in the mid of the nite keep tossin n turning and keep coughing... i sms Boss i will go see doc and he warned me mus stay @ hm cannot come to work ..any urgent thing ppl ask frm me, he will help me ans.. *touched*.. I jus hope he can see my effort i put @ work.. ya and i can feel dat the guys in my office reali appreciate me.. when i nt ard, ppl sms me ask me take care, say miss me...most funny part , Boss sms me say 1 of my married safety officer says he misses me and my toopid boss took out 1 of my pic on my wall and pasted onto the guy's com and helped me to blackmail him. He said will take a pic of him "ogling" @ my pic and asked abalone & bird nest frm him everydae.. well done leh..Boss..I sms him i am more sick nw.. tsk tsk..very playful bunch since the new guy & new ger came, my office reali "NOISY" =__=

Oh yest..1 of my safety officer presented some SOPS to the sub cons bosses for upcoming 23/24 Oct safety campaign including clients and proj directors.. its the pictures of the safety carnival held in Jun. Cos no one saved the pics , they took my "own set" of pics and showed to the ppl. When he came bac frm the mtg, he told me & Boss dat everybody was making comments and asking who am i and my boss is so xingfu to hav me as his secretary..den Boss even reminded me say the whole mtg bunch gt 30 odd ppl so i am "famous" le..i was shocked..duno hw to react..Boss still come in frnt of me to see my facial expression..i gav him a duno wan to cry or excited look..hurhur >_____< ''' I told him i am ok the sub cons bosses see cos they oso come for the sub cons bosses mtg with me & Boss sitting in..but for clients & proj directors.. ok mostly uncles.. hmm.. i am "speechless" .. i dun wish to hav such "high" exposure =/
Ha ..mayb my boss is a young one, nt very much age gap..except the 2 old uncles who work very serious @ work, other den that, they are all fun lovin ppl and ya always like to disturb me..and i am reali bein treated like a xiao mei mei.. of cos soon the new ger will either be in cahoots with them or she b one of the "victims" too ... But most guys prefer to disturb me leh..diong~
Ya ..these few daes him2 gt send me sms me and care for me ..happy le.. and calls me " his poor gal" hurhur... i gt nothin to ask for le..there is @ least attn frm him and i gt nothin to ask for le..reali~ ^_____________^ Be it he is reali true to his feelings (i can sense la)... i am reali so "xingfu" ! Hope his absence dun make my heart grow fonder ba.. i am *rational* *ding ding* He is busy with his new proj and totally based in "Senoko" site le.. so near yet so far leh..haiz.. He cant pop by often but i noe he got try his best le..busy oso try to sms me.. thanks..

Dearest biaomei - no prob helping u to wrap the goodies for ur students la..i admit i reali suck @ dat le.. haha..but ok la i managed to help u "beautify" the pressies wif the ribbon...hiak hiak.. oso a siong task le...mwahahhahahaha.
duno y this time sick till jia lat but i feel like i am reali so "blessed" of cos hope can recover fast cos lotsa yummy food waiting for me out thea..
Todae is my office boi last dae in office & i dint get to say Bye bye to him le..wish him all e best in India his hometown~..Mon will hav a new guy coming..hope he better be a nice person and can understand ENG..very impt!
Justin & AH Na.. hope u can find ur greener pastures soon.. todae ur last dae @ work..
Ah Na - All e best in ur new workplace.. Tiff reali gettin cuter =) @ her schoolin stage reali nt easy...jia you~ You are a Supermum in my eyes!
Justin - dun fret, i sure somehw u can find a better job soon*HUGZ*
Hee... Sis went Genting wif frens..i hav the com all by myself till Sun Weeeeeee =)

Last sat acc Trish go IKEA @ Alexandra buy some boxes to revamp her rm.. and this is my 1st time gg to her hse hee hee cos she cant carry bac by herself and i volunteered... happy to chat wif her too =) There was this couple the guy keeps looking @ us..wonder y..i still joked with Trish sayin we look like cohabiting couple cos we are both pushing the trolley in a lovin way shopping @ IKEA mwahahahha..Oh had dinner @ this DISNEY restaurant @ Anchorpt..we had a Mickey Mouse pizza (its a 2 person portion but actually nt very filling & it tastes ok only)..and some smoothie - the names are very creative =p The place is quite small actually nt as spacious as seen on TV..considered nicely done up ba as advertised on the variety show. I personally find dat the price is a bit steep..but ok la..its an experience.. can see many ppl taking fotos with the cute chairs, surroundings lo.

Sun oredi noe falling sick~ rested at hm~

Ger..thanks for the ride hm frm u & ur dear ..reali outta the way lo..pai say~ Geez

Haiz..starting of the wk - reali sick le.. arghhhhhhhh..very ke lian~very sway mth end..tons of endless work, packing of my office storerm..cos Boss wans it neat & tidy and say its time to clear all rubbish to make our office a better environment to work in! Luckily my office boi (He gg bac to India due to his company no longer hired by US due to some reasons) & some of my colleagues got help me with it..Due to my bad cough, i am entitled to wearing a dust mask.. (and Boss keeps laughing @ me) Yest while packing, 1 of the guy found a stethoscope and asked me - come little ger, play with ur fav toy..duh~ Den i reali play wif it and heard my own coughing and slow heartbeat! Hurhur =___= Den Boss keeps disturbing me..duno wads wrong wif him man! =( Yest after work, i finally managed to squeeze some time to see doc and get cough syrup... ok la..cough abit die dwn le..1st 2 daes cough like a choo choo train lor. Hope faster recover ba.. I hav many things to do & follow up. I was given 2 daes MC but i cant afford to take lo...every1 so sayang me when i sick.. THANKS =) ..ok la i feel blessed le.. hee =) Even him2 so busy oso sms me ask me hw am i le..(when i called him abt work) *happy* nothing to complain le.

Todae real busy lo... =( so many paperwork..and i dint sms him2 ..den when i happened to take my hp & see..i gt a sms frm him.. *sweet* = telepathy ?.. he asked i feeling better ma.. 1 of his colleague came to wait for his workers and chatted with me. I told him2... hurhur~ And Boss todae continued to disturb me by wanting to put his dirty hands on my hair & saying wad if i dun behave good, he will take the syringe and giv me injection.. as if he is talking to a real little ger..ok la..i reali blessed to hav him as my boss le..though it sounds more n more nt like boss & subordinate rs... well..he is jus like my big bro and i njoyed this attn cos i always yearn to hav one. He even tells me n the new ger if we happen to "eye" any guy, he can help us do the match making..i told him no need...i dun need a bf...asked him to help the other ger instead cos she seems keen to go dating as she has nvr date in her life yet...

OH i reali mountain turtle till todae..dint noe thru facebk u can chat like MSN lidat..nvr use the function b4..hmm will msn be obsolete soon ? jus happen to see him2 online and i jus try - testing..and he reali reply me - cant chat dear..he sleeping soon and he offline after dat..seems fun le. Diong~ ha.. @ least i noe hw it works nw!

Ya my toe is less swollen, nw is my cough and sorethroat..hope my swayness will be gone soon.. poor thing le me.. haiz.. =~=

Went AMK wif biaomei for dinner (nt suppsoed to eat western food, oops) jus nw and buys some groceries ..oh oh..both of us sick..we mus take care man! Hope she oso faster recover.. *hugz*

Ok..gg to zzzzzzzzz after taking med.

Happen to see Chaplin online MSN, had a short chat with him..asking him hw is him1 le..He says they lost contact liao and he tinks he is no longer in his current base le.. den he oso seems to change his hp no. Suddenly gt an urge to use my hse phone to call him. But i tink i jus wait for Chaplin to update me. He told me cos of me , he n Kris decided nt to invite him1 to their weddin..i will be the jie-mei..and i told him nt to invite him ba cos i scared bein kidnapped by him..den very drama and no hero will come to my rescue.. He says wan intro me to other NAVY guys..i say tolong tolong dun wan hor! hahahahhaha.


Wanted to change to this as theme song but i cant seem to be able to find le.. Haiz..
So i changed to Bye Bye by Mariah Carey.. ha him2 called is this ringtone le..cos its always waiting time to say Bye bye to him! Mwahahhahahhaa.
Ya todae during mtg..boss asked me to assist in another upcoming safety campaign. This time round my dept is the main organiser and we gg to hav our own booth..But nw is all my sub cons..they will be representing their booths too..erm meaning him2 shld be thea officially le.. weeeeeeee.. once i gt the news, i sms him.. =) This morn he is so sweet noein he b very busy @ other side, he sms me say be prepared he cant sms me le.. ok noted. ^___________^
Oh my dept finally come a ger...84 de..she is a safety engineer, needa go site once in a while and helps boss do the paperwork.. nah nt admin side..some of my sub-cons compare us le..duh~ and still say i am more pretty and their heart will be with me..pengz~ Hmm to be honest, i noe hw to doll up la..she is more to a plain Jane ba..
Todae boss passed her 1 left over souvenir and another bag which is for another new guy..i tot both for her.. den boss suddenly asked me - y u jealous ar? no la..only giv her 1 souvenir la..den i told him - jealous for wad.. giv den giv lor.. den we went to the mini-mart to buy ice cream. The new ger asked boss to treat us..den i was abt to pay den boss say he oso treating me la..i say i nvr ask him to treat la..he says he is fair la...den look @ me in a funny way~
Well the safety campaign is 1 mth away and i can foresee more n more busy le..cos this time we are all rounder le besides only needa to set up our booth, overall running the show , we call the shots man! I told boss i only help as n when needed..i needa rest..too much work for me..let the new ger n new guy take over..i be adviser..luckily he dotes on me le~ And the new ger asked me to man the booth with her cos she wans me to acc her...den boss say jia lat..wait all my bees will flood thea..
Todae so funny @ canteen, Des saw me and he said - whoa finally u will come out eat..den the new ger asks me - is he another bee? I keep quiet..when we left, boss still caught him bio-in me..pengz~

Oh i be so excited lookin fwd to buy the Lan Qiu Huo Vcd...out liao... gt Jerry, Xiaozhu & Wu zhun.. *drools*

Last wk finally nt so busy le..so less OT. But i still hav many ad hoc duties..hurhur.. all of us noe wad is meant by this rite? hahahhaha..meaning "invisible" arrows ba.. =____=
But if these arrows can make my "career woman" dream come true..heh heh i dun mind la!

Ya besides sms frm frens and him2...my hp is becoming a toy phone le..cos it wont ring and stay stationary lol.. good oso can save $ on bills and i can hanker for more yummy food~ recently reali like to xplore places to hang out wif my darlings and as long as within our budget.. regardless its accessible to get thea.. i feel dat life is short.. somemore nw i am SINGLE yeah..i can go hiao anywhere i wan to..no more reporting and nagging frm the other person.. nw even seein a "superglue" couple on train or on streets, i am IMMUNED.. hahahahhaha.
Yup..Last fri i was so happy @ work cos boss nt in after lunch..ya both of us shared a KFC buddy meal in our mtg rm (romantic wif wrong guy le..oops), raining ma..i dun wan to eat de..but seein him so ke lian..i forgo my nap..den he asked me i hav many suitors hor so far? i say NO la..all frens..he says i only make frens with shuai de..i say who is shuai and he mentions him2 cos he heard me n Leen talking abt him dat dae..i told him oh he shuai meh..jus frens la..
I joined my grp for their smokin break and chat awhile. Hee.. ya nothin new goes on for me n him2 le..norm sms lor..hahahhaha..
but 1 thing gt to share : (those of u who oredi noe, pls bear with me mention here again hahaha)
We are reali gettin more close each other and we dare to look directly into each other eyes liao!
We work even closely, sms even more direct, understand each other more and he dun anyhw flare up @ me be it bad dae @ work or wad.. and shares with me wadeva prob he faces @ work..its reali gd enugh le.. once in a while he will tell me where is his location .. *ding ding*
I sms him ask him is he in semb cos need him to collect the passes and he replied coming bac soon.. ok den ard 4 Leen asked me to join them for smoking, him2 came ard 4 plus and when he saw me with them, he said oh u here ar.. no wonder i cant find U.. I looked @ him and asked y ..cos i forgot he has come to take the passes..i nvr tell him where i was oso. Den nt forgettin i nid to help 1 of my gf to change her boss pass, i went bac to office.. i happened to turn bac while walking and i saw him2 following me..he was looking @ me in a funny way..duno hw to describe den i jus smile @ him and went to my seat. He was standing in frnt of me and seein wad i was doin. I forgot i sms him saying boss nt ard and i hav kept some souvenirs for him..cos mostly swiss knives, compass, notebk which i dun find it useful to me and he is so happy like a kid when i gav him all those..He keeps saying thank you..den i very bad le..i replied no prob cos these are love tokens frm others...den he dint say anythin..he say will go and put in the lorry (cos the rest nt supposed to noe)..i ask "LORRY" ? Ya he looks @ me in a serious way and ask me y cant he be drivin a lorry~ I stood outside and saw his back view gg to the lorry..suddenly gt a thinking - he is reali so ah du image le.. hahahhaha.. Ha and Trish was asking me am i turned on by dat look ? I told her NO lor..turned off le... *roll on floor* He tot i mind he present himsef as a dirty, crude construction look and explained dat he needs to carry many materials..his car cannot make it la.. i stood thea duno hw to react..den i went bac to my office to take somethin. He tot i am nt joining bac the grp and told me to go bac with him to find them lo..After smokin, he needs to leave cos very busy @ site.. and gives me a funny look again..i duno hw to describe.. but somehw it jus dun show he is a flirt/player kind.. nvm ...nt impt!
Ok.. when we went bac to find them, Des fren KH was thea.. he straightaway says whoa jen gt so many suitors le..be it wad race..and say dat dae he saw me n 1 indian supvr hee hee haa haaing away.. den him2 looked @ me and i avoid eye contact wif him..dat stupid Des still dare to say..whoa he needs to queue..i told him no need cos my queue is nt open.. him2 was laughing so happily.. oh i dint realise i gt poked by 1 of the clips i handed over to my gf..den i jus say Ouch..Des was so gan cheong and ask me be careful~ him2 gt looked @ me.. hahahahha..i feel so *sweet*.. though he cant say out, i can tell he oso gan cheong but we are under wraps de ma. I think he noes where to find me when i nt @ my desk liao.
Serene Sis - i had a gd chat wif u over the phone yest.. hee...dun worry so much le.. hee.. *hugz*

Oh yest..Ah na so sweet come AMK fetched me n Justin to her hse.. *touched*..this is wad real BFFS are all abt..isnt it? Thank you sis ^____________^ Muacks! Sorry hor still let U wait for me so long cos my du du bu zeng qi - mense 1st dae.. *horrible* luckily still can "dong" all e way to ur hse and to meetin my dearest biaomei lor (tks to biaomei intro me this yummilicious ice cream store @ citi link..newly opened de..she burst out laughing say my biao qing very kua zhang like on a food show.. my eyes fa liang and i keep saying so nice le after puttin in my mouth, she too followed saying whoa damn nice, kou gan hao hao wor..both of us were like givin food critics..kekeke) >_________<
I reali hav a gd time laughing @ our "love letters" and her pen pal toot pics hahahahhaha..hw i wish mine still ard and we can share share and laff @ it..but too bad b4 i shifted to wdls..my mum threw all away...thanks to TEENAGE MAG ..hahahha, 2 of us dint noe we be so lucky to hav ours on making frens column advertised on it! Hurhur..i still remember i gt a harsh beating & scolding frm my parents! *memorable pain* .. tons of guy fan mails.. hahahhaha. Loved ur cookin too.. hee =p Ha i find it shocking when him2 called me yest on my hp.. cos i sms him and ask whether he likes the souvenirs and he asks me gt anymore cos he needs to hand in for his committee @ work..i say dun hav le and ask him either he giv out all or keep few for himself.. den he called me jus to say dun worry he will keep for himself since i dun hav anymore spare. I asked him he called to tell me this and he says ya lo..den asked me to help him find some safety posters..i told him will go bac office on Sun to do it..He tot i went bac cos of him and scold me says sun rest la...no hurry.. i say no la i gt work to do..but cos i went hiao with biaomei quite late..i gav myself a rest again.. den he so happy on the phone says see me tomoro den..when we put dwn the phone.. i sms him nt used to talkin on the phone with him..cos i oredi get used to sms him.. lidat i oso happy le.. i noe he on cse den tea break call me de!
Ah na... yest in ur car.. i oso find it funny when u asked me abt him2 and the other person.. hahahhaha.. i oso find my action amusing hahahahha..ya u n Justin says i am so cheerful and happy nw, i oso feel dat my mood brightened alot.. hee.. ^____________^ Hope it can be a permanent "state" for me..
I reali njoy bein SINGLE again ..... lalalallalalalallaallala...though i oso wan a guy to dote on me but nw @ dis pt..i jus wan njoy the process. Oh ya this is funny~ last wk I told him2 i nt feelin well and y he nvr care for me and guess wad he reply..he says he oso nt feelin dat gd hw to care for me when his asthma attack and on MC on Mon..pengz. So in a way he wans me to care for him! *scratch head* We are nt " ai mei" anymore.. we are gettin to be comfortable wif each other le.. nah we nt meetin up and i wan this way! And i reali understand hw forthrite he can be le..nt happy will say out, his tots and sometimes too honest till i am speechless lor.

Hee..this is hw my week goes..
yup..will meet el for drinks soon..pai say to reject him for 4 wks le..wooooooooo.. and he is so understanding ...thanks dear =D

bYe bYe :
MariAh cArEy


This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye byebYe bYe
MariAh cArEy


This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through

All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by

And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
Bye bye

Attached pics for Shanna's Pre B Dae Cele and some of my hiao-ing pics =)

Daes passes reali fast le..nw is mid Sep..and this coming week is MOoncake festival le.
Ya my work gettin more n more.. but still hav to say i still njoy my job!
This morn.. Leen came to my office to call him2 using my office phone (cos he dun hav her no..she n other gf feels dat nt the time to giv him yet).. den she told me him2 jio them go smoke but he was late for 20 mins..i told her he is forever late cos everytime he tells me the time he is comin nt "accurate" de... den he says he reaching soon..
I dun wish to join them de den Leen says Des lookin for me wanted to ask me some NS issues...den i went lo..and talked to him and saw him2 come.. Leen was talking abt her preparations for weddin..den him2 talking abt some tattoos on his arm all dis...and says where he norm go drink etc... Whoa..lucky i sat thea and can hear his stories haha...he kept on looking @ me when Des keep on talking to me and gav me a kind of cheeky smile.. duh~
Den in the noon 2nd session of smoking , him2 was nt thea..but the rest and my uncle was thea..he came bac and tell me.. eh u heard of ur beau story ma ? i say wad? He says abt his happening events..hahahaha..i say ya morn i was thea..den he asked me to be careful...cos he seems like nt givin some ppl gd impression ..he shld be a flirt and always come my office..nw dat he has to go Leen's office to find her boss, he can flirt with her too. I replied - Uncle he flirt or wad..i dun care le..frens only ma..hahahaha..and i wont be jealous la..even he comes here smoke dun pop in see me..be it lor... I noe he is concerned for me..but sadly he duno...me n him2 complicated rs. QUite pissed with him2 le..after he left, told me to ask the others go drink n hav dinner @ nearby kopitiam..I told him to ask himself...until almost go hm oso no reply when i sms him..duno he say for fun or forget le.. diong~ Den i sms Leen see whether he gt called her..she says NO. Den i told her abt the dinner she says heck care ba..and she can sense him2 may wan be more den frens wif us but she says she is a smart ger, noe hw to handle him hahahha. I say ya we are smart gers... yeah! And i slowly wan tink him as a flirt though he tells me honestly tells me he is always ok to noe more frens and no need tink so much....lidat i wont sink in it le and i am slowly able to do dat..nw i dun sms him often @ work too partly cos of work , partly can see him when he comes smoke so can save sms! *yeah smart gal*.. cos after so many flirtatious sms wif him, time to stop will stop le..hurhur! Yeah i am rational! And makes me dun trust guys even more..haha sounds les hor.. so far still ok hee. Ah na dun worry even he reali is a flirt, dun matter to me cos i havent fall for him yet.. my heart still with him duno no wad.. heh heh. AH na..thanks for callin me.. i am ok =p
Ya, i gt free mooncakes frm sub cons but nt snow skin le.. haiz.. will njoy eating myself.. mayb can share with my gfs @ work. Glad they are nt like those gals i used to noe and no longer contact in SAF.
Last MOn cele Shanna's pre-bdae @ Miramar Hotel IKOI JAP RESTAURANT and its our treat to her! Food ok nt bad but svc reali as review mentioned nt dat efficient lor.. haiz. = (
After dat we walked to Robertson Quay and sported 1 damn nice orange sports car..will load pics soon. We chilled @ TCC and we treated her to cakes and drinks..gal..hope u hav a gd time..i did!
Den we decide to take a stroll..and decided to walk towards Clarke Quay..While we were njoying the scenery..it suddenly poured very heavily and we started to run..i told them its so romantic le walking in the rain...they say they are nt him2 duh..aiya besides him2 or wad..with frens lidat once in a while is damn cool =p Somemore we old decade frens.
Lucky cab flow @ Taxi stand was fast, managed to dint reali get drenched le..
Ya..ok dun wan mention but jus mention ba..him1 nvr called me oredi ? good..good..hope it continues lidat..mayb he found new targets.. seein some guys nw and tink of him1, he is nothin for his past le.. hmm..but dun mean i will wan be with him again! Jus a tot only.

陳奕迅 Eason Chan - 不要說話







六月的雨-完整MV版 - 胡歌




仙剑奇侠传 - 一直很安静 - Ah Sang




Angel by Natasha Bedingfield

Just like a shadow
I'll be beside you
I'll be your comfort
And let it guide you home
I will provide you a place of shelter
I want a be your zone
Tell me what to do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
Who will never promise to leave her man
Making vows to please her man

If I could be your angel
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger
You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l
I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l
I'll be your angel

Just like the moon
I'll step beside
And let your sun shine
While I follow behind
Cause baby what ya got
It is with all the props
With everything I'm not
Tell me what to do
Tell me what you wanted me to do
I'll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
Who will never promise to leave her man
Making vows to please her man

[ Angel lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
If I could be your angel
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger
You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l
I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l
I'll be your angel

Tell me why there's so many good men
And the world's misunderstood
He's a dog, he's no good
I wish somebody would
Disrespect my man
You're gona have to come see me
I go hard for my baby
He's all that I need

So if you got a good one
Put your hands up,
Come on girl and stand up
Go ahead lift your man up
Get up
If you got a good one, put your hands up
Go ahead lift your man up
Get up
If you got a good one, stand up
Come on girl, and stand up

If I could be your angel
Your angel, Your angel
Protect you from the pain
I'll keep you safe from danger
You'll never hurt again
I'll be your a.n.g.e.l
I'm gona be your a.n.g.e.l
I'll be your angel

A.N.G.E.L. - Natasha Bedingfield

EMO FRM HEAD TO TOE ENTRY:
MAYB THE MOST EMO FOR THIS MTH :

(Hope read le..dun cry wor~) and dis theme song in my blog reali reflects wad i am gg thru nw.. wish all my frens can find happiness with ur loved ones le.. as long as u dun caught him/her red handed.. jus learn to be tolerant ba.. and to minimise conflicts..instead find ways to spice up ur "LOVE" and make effort frm thea.. SUSPICION is nt healthy le...though i reali hate to say rs nowadaes are very vulnerable le.. we mus face this fact ok ? *hugs*
HIM2 and HIM3 are/will be my "exclusive" memories in my life.. Thank you! Of cos i dun wish to hav him4 etc........ pengz.
(Suddenly gt an urge to let him2 read my blog hahaha..but i noe even i tell him, he oso wont read ba.. "feelin" la..if he reali read..i tink he will be touched too, for a normal human bein)..even a player oso has feelings.. though i dint reali term him as 1 yet le.

3 SEP 2008 1 yr in current working place ...so fast le..realise this yr reali passes very fast unknowingly le. Haiz...duno issit gd or bad..but tinking nw sep wad did i reali achieve again man ? =(

I rested @ hm whole weekend again...cos frm head to toe nt feelin very well, feverish, emo, stomach nt well ..and no choice i gotto forgo going to Darius's hse for the moon cake cele wif biaomei and some other ppl...haiz...reali very upset..i noe they sure angry wif me for so called bein a "pilot"..supposed to hav a pot luck and get together session le.. But w/o me i sure they oso njoyed themselves too....dis 2 daes i alone @ hm nt well and reali feel so pitiful..fed on cup noodles (and due to my blurness i dint realise water in the flask is nt boiled..diong~ ended up half cold noodles man) =.= 1 thing no mood go out , the other thing nt feelin very gd..everyone in my hse has their own programmes...luckily for dinner.. mum & sis still gt da bao for me.. *poor ger*.. (suffer in silence & nobody noes).... =_____=
Haha..duno why recently tink abt lotsa things again.. *emo* abt my life again... somehw feel dat nowadaes the rs reali cannot withstand any obstacles or any tests? ..as time goes by...it will fade..sorry peeps...nt that i pouring cold water on all of U..it only applies to ME la - I AM REALI TIRED OF COMMITTMENTS.. beautiful ending only appears in drama shows nt in real life..i mean for me la.. and time bein i intend to hav a long break to charge myself and to "shut" my heart for time bein.. secretly say here wor :
I INTEND TO LET WHOEVER I CAN GET HIS ATTN but he wont be able to hav any part of my heart hahahha.. enjoy the process of bein wooed (time bein empty window) and to prevent myself frm gettin hurt.. mind games are prohibited.. ok ok..meaning - u can see the fruit but u cant taste it..very miserable and bad rite? But no choice.. lidat den i can njoy life and be happy as i moved on.......... =) Its a selfish thing to do..but to me..rite nw.. i dun reali trust guys le..and i dun intend to giv whoever a chance..once i like "him" it be pure liking and dun wish tink so much! And i dun intend to let the other party noe. Me n him2 after last fri sms-es, we gradually understand each other better..duno is gd or bad..but ya can say nw - i am "addicted" in this process...actually besides sms-es , we dint progress any further jus dat i hav to admit..my liking for him grow each dae but i am still "awake" =p I am happy when he recognised all my effort to him and he reali feels touched..i can feel it.. its gd enugh..though he dun wan express it out i noe..
Be it he is a player or wad is nt impt..the most impt part i like him and if he is happy n xingfu..i will suppt him (behind)..i tink if i ever tell him dat...wonder wad his reaction will be ? Hurhur...
where gt such a silly woman exist in this world unless its filming ba..but i am jus ME..no need any outcome.. #____#
VERY HONEST CONFESSION :
Ok besides my ex.. (dun ask me why i used to love him so deeply..frm duno wad is love becomes real love , in it mixed wif sadness, disappointments, some happy moments & bad shadows)..my heart cant accept any other guy ..even there is a liking to other guys..end of the dae..i will make sure dat feelin "diminishes" in me and continue frm thea..
But since i am single nw and dunno y i reali start to like him2 so much, i tink when the time is "ripe" i will self destroy my feelings for him too and bac to frens. Since he is a carefree guy, i sure we can work things out fine. And i dunno y..recently i do notice he has this "glow" in him and makes him more attractive. 1 of my new ger frens Ah lian still tell me she oso starts to notice him2 (recently he keeps gg her office to find her boss mtg).. and finds him reali charming and wans make frens..(duno y when she tells me dat..i feel a tinge of sourness though i noe she is jus attracted by his looks but nt interested in him).. hmm i jealous ma? Nah she is gettin married soon..and my the other gal frens say no harm noein a fren and somemore so shuai...but they duno me n him2 rs.. i told him2 abt it..and he is so happy ppl singing his praises..i told him sure happy la..scully many gers out thea bio-in him dats y he has this "love glow" in him more n more obvious! The real reason to his glow remains unknown hahaha..only he himself noes..i noe definitely nt cos of ME. Of cos he dint reply me le...... i feel dat sometimes i am reali weird~ i keep liking those i am nt supposed to like and no outcome de category but i can reali click damn well with them.. and always tell myself as long as they are happy.. i am contented~ i duno y recently i will jus keep gg into my hp inbox (can be many times 1 dae) to see all sms-es him2 sent and jus feels so sweet reading them is reali gd enugh..be it frm his heart..erm sometimes i feel dis way..sometimes i jus feel dat he is jus making me float on cloud9 and dun mean a thing.. ~~ "sometimes i reali got to let loose" and dun tink so much..trying my best..him2 is rite in a way dat i giv myself too much load and worry too much abt lotsa things..nt my prob i oso worry hahaha.. bein an "angel" oso overperformed my duty le, ..eh..am i reali "torturing" myself by wantin to divert my attn & movin on? (though nw i am more expressive in my tots & feelings , will confide in frens in almost everything..but some worries in me and some tinking i still choose to "lock" it in my heart, feelin emo will still cry but the no. of times i shed tears alone has reali decreased..i swear!)
Ok..will find some nice mVS and share here.. time to rest my eyes le.

PS: thanks to my sub cons dat i received yummy mooncakes esp the ones frm Raffles Hotel - champagne wif rich white chocs....mayb i am destined can only eat n njoy myself in office...sorry Biaomei n Darius for nt turning up yest.. i noe u all mus be ANGRY but i oso cant help it! Sorry~

Heh heh..tue went dempsey rd wif Trish to chill out le..finally we managed to comb a secluded area for our " secret topics" hurhur... Cos it jus stopped raining and we went dwn its ard late evening, the whole place was dark..we took a cab frm Wisma all e way in and both of us jaw dropped neh.. cos the place is like totali a kampung and isolated but can see lots nice restuarants in the vicinity. Cab uncle asks which blk no we gg..both of us oso stunned..den luckily Trish saw the restaurant name ya - Hacienda 13 Dempsey Rd. =) Phew! If nt we be gg in circles and the cab fare will keep "jumping" too. =.=
We ordered pizza and fries and fruit juice..and started yatting non stop. Den 2nd round we ordered beer le... she prefers the bigger cup cos more worthwhile..for me i jus wan drink abit scared nxt dae cant go to work. We sat thea to chil out till the restaurant closes ard 1230 am..nxt time bring biaomei and more frens to chill out. On the way bac, our cabbie uncle still so kind hearted tell me where can get nice food, chill out etc... he says i dun hav the look go chiong pub de..prefer chillin out de..i say ya... hee =) Its reali quiet during weekdaes..even wan go wif "ai mei" ppl oso can mwahahahhaha..but inaccessible la! Trish asks me bring him2 thea i say provided he wans come with me ba.. (it wont happen 100%!)
Oh ya..him2 yest told me since his colleague is nt doin a gd job for the safety courses, he will take bac and do..meaning he will work with me once again...eh duno i shld feel happy but feels happy cos can see him often again. All tks to my boss for another complaint email ..this time round is send to him2 big boss. I dono whether him2 took bac to do voluntarily..its nt impt! Ya happy to receive Elvin's call ...long time no chat with him =) I havent update him abt him2 yet though..
And i did OT till 9pm..garang rite ?
Todae raining heavily as usual...took a nap in office and received a sms frm him2..ya he hinted he wants us to be together but i told him i am contented as of nw.. i am quite shocked to see the sms..i noe he is those carefree type jus like "him" hahaha..there is him3 de..but dun wan make it too luan...shall nt involve dat... nt a new character though! And i noe exactly hw we are to be like..same as history..and him2 finally expressed himself all out & openly to me. I am very happy at least i noe he is nt a jerk as of nw! He dint force me say will respect my decision..i say ok meanwhile we will remain as it is ba. So i thinking if we were to work closely again...its nt reali a gd thing afterall ba...haiz. *tired of havin a rs*
Ya 1 more thing i cannot believe my year 86 de cousin gettin married nxt yr? hmm..my mum broke the news to us yest and we were shocked..she is so young lo..mayb the hubby wans to tie her dwn or oredi reach the age to settle dwn ba...well i sms biaomei and told her..both of us dun feel like wanting to go bai nian nxt yr le..hurhur..cos all our relatives will be so jaw dropped, tongue dropped, eye balls pop out lor..why we dun hav bf? hahahhha.