Babies, babies on Sat haha..coincidentally celebrating Tiff's 2nd bdae and god bro Geoffrey BB Kenneth 1 mth old.. luckily both @ Pasir Ris ! See pics!

Me and Justin went to Tiff's cele 1st. I took a cab all e way thea cos raining and sorry nt in time for cake cuttin.. but i still made my way thea. Justin got church events so he arrived even later.

Ah Na cooked some simple fares.. ok la..nice.. i was shocked to hear she cooked the curry chix. Tot her popo cooked de... i responded lidat cos she nvr cooked that for me b4 ma. LOL.


Can see Tiff reali excited and happy dat dae.. =D Wana take pics with her very hard le..mus carry her and faster pose.. very happy for Ah Na Tiff grew up so ke ai and so far still obedient la. Reali not easy bringing a child up! She knew its her bdae dat dae and so hyper moving round the hse.. got 1 part she even talking to a plushie in her gibberish language and playing wif herself.. totally in her world so innocent and cute! PPL say when u feel dwn, best to mix with a kid..its true la.. she does cheer me up. Thanks Tiff Muacks ! Me and Justin felt we old liao cos we upgraded to be god ma and god pa and gave angbaos.

The Winnie the Pooh cake is damn big but luckily gam my taste.. dun gam Justin.. he simply dreads balckforest cake dats y i hoot 3 big slices hahaha. Nowadaes kids are reali xingfu =P We stayed awhile and watched the Slumdog Millionaire. (Though AH Na invited few frens and relatives..oredi very heart warming and Tiff got 1 point duno wad happen..keep taking the comb and started combing our hair.. ) I watched it with Trish liao ( at bishan on a rainy weekdae..) so i jus njoyed eating and dis time round though Ah Na was beside me..i talked less , ate more. Its a very nice show.. very heart breakin to see the poor ppl livin in India ...mostly living in dilapidated slums, bad livin environment.. very unhygienic culture.. and the story linked well to every "Who wans to be a Millionaire " qn..no wonder can get award for OScar. I teared in theatre. Justin was so concentrated on watching the show once again. Hurhur! After dat we took a cab to Coasta Sand to go for another BB showering. Bb de mama was feeding Kenneth so we waited awhile. Finally the star appeared.. such a lovely bb.. big eyes and soft skin hee..everyone took turns to carry the BB. Justin and me waited for almost the guests to leave den we finally got our chance. I njoyed carrying him in my arms and i kept talking to him..Ha some frens says i do hav the motherly look in 1 of the pic. I like Babies ma =) Ha bro showed us clips in his lappie as show case.. I was joking to Justin ..nxt time my turn will be projected on a big plasma screen or projector.. both of us cajoled. Ok la.. we ate thea again..though i had alot to fill up my stomach @ AH Na's HSe. Bro de Mama keep askin us to dig in..pai say lor..gotto eat abit.. Ha bro so cute lo..make balloons for kids and pretty young mei meis.. heh heh i was 1 of them *grins* 1 of our frens Roy fetched me and Justin to Pasir Ris taxi stand and we shared cab hm. Thanks =p If nt we still tinking hw to get outta Coasta Sand. Had a long dae but happy cos Babies do perk me up yeah!

NXt Dae Sun met up with Manfred for dinner @ cwp. Everytime mit him sure ate alot.. this time round we went to Crystal Jade. We had individual food - mine shrimp Noodle soup, his - some hor fun or wad..den we ordered xiao cai - 2 dishes lidat.. hurhur.. den we had Gelares ice cream. *sinful* Den i walked bac hm to digest..he took cab bac.. nah no nid send me i wana take a stroll myself. To my horror b4 meetin him and hiao hiao wanna change to a mini sling bag..realised my pink IC is GONE.. yes GONE... searched high and low and almost late to meet him. Till nw i am still looking for it..i reali cannot remember hw i lost it..blur like sotong rite? I wont reali go check my wallet on off see my IC thea anot ma.. haiz.. Gotto Po cai and dang zai ma.. hope this zhai wont be a drastic one.. $100 can buy many things le..somemore goto go ICA make new 1.. thinking abt the queue, travellin dist..pls kill me can =( If i am gg alone felt even more like dying! Thanks Trish for volunteer to go with me.. =p Greatly appreciated.
Ya 2 yrs in advance i get to change my pic.. is it worth to be happy to tink in dis way ? I am reali praying for a miracle nw.. i reali scared mis-used by ppl to take and borrow AH LONG or do anything bad.. =( So despite Mag said no nid a polis report..i tink i better report to feel more @ ease! My sis and some frens still can joke dun worry if ppl borrow $ using ur IC..pig head wont come so fast cos mth end mus pay ma.. and if i recently den lost..shld be in Apr liao.. wad console is dis..though lame ! "__"" And i got a phobia go polis stn leh..since young being taught only bad ppl go thea hurhur~ even lame rite?

Well..had a long sms wif him2.. well .. bac to sq 1 again ya blame myself i cant be heartless..ok la ..as Trish said.. its too late to turn bac.. and though all my frens will be thea to suppt me yet they strongly dun encourage this.. i guess mayb jus hav this temp happiness ba. Mayb its 1 thing i wont regret when i fall bac to tink of it nxt time. As long as i noe my limits .. jus let it be. I have been trying very hard to force myself to suppress my feelings and all by nt sms or replying his smses.. its reali hard. SObz. SOmemore recently lotsa things happen ard me i reali very xingku lo..lucky work still ok lo.. He initiated to take leave on fri to mit me after work..he scared he got last min work and cant mit me. I told him if fated den go la..no need waste leave unless earlier in the dae he needa settle his stuffs. In my heart i am reali happy to hear dis and wana take leave to mit him etc.. but my clear mind dun allow me to do dat.. i straightaway tell him i got somethin on.. cant mit him. He seemed to be upset and told me he is makin effort yet i nt free this time. Frankly speakin..i no nid this kind of gesture.. its a contradicting process.. pls kill me or slap me can.. even though no use. i am trying to focus entirely bein my career woman though less OT and practically weekends i dun go bac work. But come again if him2 dun reciprocate.. i feel even worse rite? ok la..crap la.. i wont "burn" myself most impt!
Manfred very lame la over msn - he said his nxt gf very hard to move him..i say ask him to stay thea dun move and he said ya lo he is heavy ma dats y hard to move him away. When i lamented on my part same same ..he replied me cos i mobile worse.. anyhw run so very hard to move me.. wad a lame saying..but it sounds cartoon hor.

Todae after work wanna go make polis report de..who noes suddenly rain very heavily den i hav to go tomorro lor.. After bro came bac hm ..he told my dad he wanna study in this cse -Dip in Sound AUdio Engineering.. but to our horror per semester mus pay $3K++ for 1 yr.. its too siong lo..he havent find a stable job yet..end of the dae we hav to fork out to help esp our parents..sometimes his naiveness almost killed everyone in the family. He said he can find a job to help him to suppt his sch fees, sad to say he do nt hav higher qualifications.. even his frens wan intro him to a better pay job..the pay wont be able to tide him thru. Dad heard le almost faint..and explained to him the pros and cons.. he dun wanna listen and went bac to his rm. I dun understand y his mind is so simple... haiz. 20 yrs old after sering NS shld noe hw to tink ma. 1st time passed his driving expects my parents to buy him a gd car and say he can suppt. Ya they did say wanna buy a car so that he can drive us round to gd makan places.. but but..seein his " Bu Ta Shi " attitude..they changed their mind.. cos me n my sis both agreed he should find a stable job..all dis can wait.. I dun wish get invloved in payin for the car when i got no licence nw. Internet bill i paying though i used least, still i get to use ma! Super super pissed wif him ! Reali hope he can wake up frm his naive dream. Its gd to hav ambitions but nt far fetched ones when u havent reali step into the working world lor! Thanks to him dad's high blood pressure is going to increase..and doc advised him nt to get worked up so he talked nicely and calmly to my bro..given last time oredi shouted @ him liao. 1 thing dad said made me sad cos he says nw he is the breadwinner.. and i earning abit more nw but to pay my sch fees so he dun reali nid me to suppt the family too. Due to recession and all..he oso worried he may be laid off! Den wad will happen ? Suddenly i got 2 heavy baggages.. 1 is emotional part.. dat one so far still can be controlled 1 is the reality part.. if anything happens to dad or his company.. wad is gg to happen to us.. i reali dun dare to tink? Given all dis incoming stress.. i am reali lost and i reali wan find someone to dote on me @ dis pt.. but besides my besties.. who else? haiz.. I only voice out here..who noes and can feel wad i am gg thru.. everydae go work nw oso nt as cheerful as most ppl said..i am trying very hard to focus @ work no matter hw! no one will believe..after 6mths i am still trying to get by w/o him1 esp @ dis emo pt of my life. He dun reali offer gd advice but he will either giv me a long bear hug or acc him on the phone listen to my yakkin and complaining for hrs..

Arghhhhhh..this blog entry though long dun come easy lo.. i dragged frm Sun to nw - Thu ( cos saved as draft it wont reflect) den finish..reali no mood.. soaked in tears ..emo... lucky boss nt in dis week.. i still hav some quietness when the rest go site!

Mar 10 - Happy Bdae Serene Sis.. glad to hear u hav a gd cele =D Seein u soon in 4 weeks time..
Miss u alots.. =)