Whoa dint realise so long dint blog..super sick again..mayb nt enugh rest or tinking too much causing my mind and soul cannot take it = fall sick again.. Ya Fever, flu and cough.. hated it! On 2 daes MC .. only yest zzzz for 1 whole dae ( i swear nt even wake up to wee wee and no response to mama nagging and she dun understand y i am so bedridden.. )nvr reply my frens sms, ans call while i zzz, and hav many missed calls.. 1 dae w/o food and water..

Last fri went to mit EL (he came to fetch me & early in the morn called me to remind our "date")and 2 of his frens - Jason and Ben (last min joined us)..he drank alot and got tipsy.. 1 of our guy fren sent him hm..we all noe he in bad mood so we all agreed to acc him.. we went to Serangoon area some KTV pub..nope i dint drink alot cos they all noe i am sick.. I jus sat thea and acc them talk most of the time. We only can listen to his prob but i rarely see him in such a stupor and so sad! I so bz taking care of EL..the guys said i am reali like a nanny. Haiz. After dat, Jason drove me to Hougang area to acc him eat bfast.. I had nasi lemak early 1am.. den i took a cab hm..he oso drank so nt wise to send me bac. After that my zzz marathon started, mayb cos of my med effect..i reali concussed thruout this morn 9am den woke up!

While i am in Lala land..received many calls/sms-es asking me out..so touched.. suddenly so many ppl wanna date me..all scared i bored @ hm ba..thanks guys! I only remember picking up Ah Na's call asking me to acc her go IMM and she would come fetch me..(she said to me whoa u reali sound like a man haha =.=) i oso duno wad i blabber den went bac zzz.. Biaomei's sms 2-3 times..i tink i replied 2 times....she asked me wana mit her n bf for dinner or wherever i wan go..she will acc me.. i simply no mood..most funny part, Kristin sms me to go Bugis mit her den mayb @ nite drink..i still can reply her OK..but duno somehw i woke up @ 6pm and told her i am nt feeling well and nt meeting her.. duno y i woke up dat moment teared abit..and ya remember 11 plus EL called me to say thank you for the nite wif the guys.. and i oso duno wad i say.. jus say ya i am zzz.. Am i dat tired or all in my mind ? Haiz.

1st meal of the dae - pork porridge..mama bot for me ..
My sis and her gf flew on Jet Star to Taiwan yest noon..jus received her sms she eating @ Jay Chou's restaurant nw..arghhhhhhhh.. @%#%$^ Y nt me thea nw ? 1 week holi so nvious man.. I oso wan go holi to cleanse my mind.. but duno who can go wif me ? I seriously need a holi!

The week b4 reali nt enugh zzzz (yeap went O bar after my class dat fri and went bac 4am and went straight to work very stoned! )nxt dae went to Jurong Shipyard (lotsa hidden hemsem guys, i kept lookin out the corridor for motivation and to keep myself awake while manning the booth wif my new gal, i told her imagine i worked here..she said better nt..more bees hurhur~) for our safety campaign..fell asleep on the bus..went wif some workers..after dat dat nite had movie wif Trish..super tired!).... dats y my body collapsed and i noe i am getting old..reali need REST! Sat went to the new Jurong Pt ( reali big and better to shop @ nw, but very far for me ) wif Manfred to watch 12 rounds action pac..nt bad though old plot polis and thief..after dat had dinner and went to the 24hrs NTUC to buy some groceries. Reached hm 1am. Cant afford such late nite "stunts" Went JB with Justin ..ya this time round he reali went with us..and still agreed to go in again with us every mth. HE got his Baskins ice cream wish granted, reali nice! Ya we took turns to take care of Little Tiff. Her parents den can hav time hands in hands so freely walk and njoyed their personal time. Ha 1 salesgirl mistook me and Justin as Tiff's parents duh! We got lost on JB roads cos after dinner we can see the whole causeway was super jammed.. we wanna take the 2nd link but drivin ard JB 1 hr plus in the nite (can see only our SG car) drivin in circles and duno wad road.. is reali scary.. Justin and I studied the road map..Ah Na drivin ard, her hubby helped to look @ signboards, BB Tiff in dreamland!
Ya @ last we found the 2nd link (map put as Linkedua) and Ah Na sent me bac oredi 1 am.. den sent Justin bac..poor them..everyone had a tiring dae. Seriously JB should put more proper and clear signboards for we SG ppl esp!

Well duno gd news anot.. him2 got transferred bac to my shipyard..but he is under SSPL proj meaning nt my company sub con anymore but we share yard with Sembawang ppl so its still within my yard area. He sms-ed me this gd news so happy say can see me often again.. @ that moment reali like filming lor..my boss asked me in his office to remind me abt my career path thingy. He told me once i get my degree cert in dec ( nw may postpone to nxt Mar/ Apr, pending sch decision) I either hav to do internal dept transfer or leave my company to seek for greener pastures. He did promise to help me do internal posting cos he oso dun wan me to see me leave. He kept telling me he was nt chasing me , jus tat my current post i am over qualified le. (Actuali my current post a O lvel will do) I heard le reali sad but reali grateful to him cos he upgraded me after i showed him my diploma cert and i got promoted within 1 yr.( He fought for my promotion with HR) I controlled my tears. AFTER I LEFT HIS RM, I TEARED SILENTLY! HE noes but oso duno wad to say le. I reali love the ppl in my dept and ya i am a princess here and everyone loves me..i told my malay engineer, my new gal and Uncle Jarn. They are oso too sad for words but @ the same time happy for me cos my career path gonna be better and i will hav more stable pay.

Den him2 sms came again said he would pop by see me the nxt dae. i duno y...mayb too emo or wad..i go and sms him the bad news.. he oso loss for words. He says he very hard to be transferred bac but i am leavin..even i go main office (mostly my internal trsnfer be thea)... he oso cant pop by nw.. i say ya but if fated be frens no matter where i am..its up to him to contact me. He consoled me by saying nvm he still got 8mths can come see me. But he is happy for me dat i can hav a more stable income cos i am oredi 28 le. I feel very scared to make decison nearer the date though my besties all said it will definitely do me gd to change environment and learn more new things. I cant forever be a princess in my current place , main core job scope to write mins and processing passes for workers! I duno wad fate has in store for me..we shall see.. super sad..the tot of leavin my dept makes me even sad plus add on to my sickness.(dun feel this way when leavin SAF) ya i hav to admit i am sad to leave him2..but time is approachin. I guess some ppl are rite nvr put too much feelings wif ur colleagues cos u be gone somedae! Me and him2 got to say goodbye..whether after dec we will still be frens.. i dun dare tink so far or place any hopes! Drama rite? It shld nt hav started in the 1st place..wad triggered? its nt impt ..jus cherish ba.
Dunno y since i keep telling myself i am leavin soon..i reali no mood to go work.. last wed him2 dint pop by..i felt sad cos i tot can see him makes me happier.. we 1 mth nvr see each other le..
Last Thu tink too dwn and seriously sick, i went to sms him hope can see him 1 glance oso gd. HE dint reply.. sobz.. den after 30mins he replied bz and new proj manager strict..he got to be ard @ all times and he as a manager still got to report his whereabts.. den to my surprise.. he reali appear in frnt of me @ 3plus ..i was so bz dint notice he standin in frnt of me (duno hw long he standin thea).. dat dae many ppl went in/out my office cos they got cse nxt door and kept borrowing guys toilet in my office. When i happened to look up..him2 smiling @ me and said Hi Hw are U..reali pretendin to drop by lidat.. i asked tot he cant pop by..he said i sad and sick ma so he sneaked out awhile to come see me. My boss popped out his head to see who was talking to me and saw him2. Him2 said hi to my boss and commented he jus pop by and say hi cos been very long he no come..my boss suan him say sure not come to see him de la.. i kept quiet.. i talked to him2 very softly cos i was havin a bad sore throat. He kept havin eye contact with me and asked me take care. We couldnt talk much cos Boss ard.. and so funny i noe he got no work related and my boss ard he cant talk to me freely..he oso no need keep asking me GQ got come, GQ come often ma ..all abt GQ..duh.. i told him nope GQ oso bz no pop in la! Den he looked @ me in a funny way and told me he needed to get bac.. i only sms him thanks for the surprise and happy to see him!

Dat dae after work..met Justin to go Ah Na's hse to collect bac the mee sua he forgotten to bring hm (bot in JB) and to borrow some DVDs.. thanks to Ah Na's Hubby picked us up @ Pasir Ris MRT. We ordered Arnold's chicken (i 1st time eat, ha they said to yi du gong du =.= , chilled abit thea and ya helped to organise all of Ah Na's dvd. Me and Justin wanted Ah Na send us hm as a reward for our hard work. Heh heh..she kept her promise.. she wanted to drive us out to chill out..by then Justin oredi very tired..we sent him hm..Ah Na and I wanna go Khatib thea for a small catch up but the place closed for the dae liao. So she sent me hm.. but reaching my hse dwnstairs.. i acc her smoke and chatted... after dat i volunteered to acc her top her petrol den she sent me bac hm again. This time round..she remember wanna change small notes for her hubby..so she drove us to 888 plaza 7-11 to buy drinks and totali she sent me hm 3 times. The last time i told her i hav enugh of deja Vu le and needa reali go hm rest. Thanks sis for the rides =) I noe wad may come hav to come..i hav to face reality! No pt tink bac hw all dis triggered me but if i reali wan lidat to be happy...jus cherish these 8mths wif my office ppl and mayb him2. He told me he need nt work so late nw cos no more OT claims..everydae will knock off 645pm unless reali no choice..sat goto work till 445pm.. he told me very few chinese (managerial post and below , nt to the workers level).. all can't work well with Indians.. He dun wish to be a racist.. but previous and current proj his big boss was an Indian le and very unreasonable..those lower levels will gang up to bully the few chinese grp. Nw i noe work @ site reali nt ez esp dealing with men to men. I am reali blessed @ my workplace for nw. Seriously i dun xpect he can send me or pop by often.. i oso dun wan him to get into trouble! He said he will noe wad to do.. ask me dun be sad..cos we duno wad will happen tomorro.. Haiz. Our saga will still hav to end somehw on X dae in mth Dec. I will take it in my stride.. can any tell me y i always take a likin to wrong guys..

Received a sms frm GQ ard 1 pm jus nw..fwded me a very sweet sms.. and told me he only sent to me , due to he was stuck in the rain he sms me lo...see i will reply..told me he on mc2 daes and asked me take care lo.. i only ask him take care and thanks. Haiz. I havent break the news to him yet..he initially still worried cant contact me after he left..nw he temp on our new proj nt leavin yet..this new proj takes 2yrs lidat..so ya time to say bye i hav to ! I jus hope meanwhile Boss can let me attend or help out in my dept any campaign since i dun hav much time with them! Raining and i am stuck @ hm.. so many things to do..my mind cant focus..wan ZNG my hp, my rm, read up mags..reali no mood leh! Tomoro mon liao..i cant go on lidat..reali got to da qi jing shen and cherish my daes with them...my engineer said will throw me a grand party..Alot of things will change for these 8mths but i jus hope it will get better. Suddenly feels like wan to be invisible and be somewhere i hav fresher air to breathe, less bothering things needa take care and be happily ever after.. cant be heaven cos i am definitely not an angel.

I reali hope after all these obstacles.. good things can come my way, very tired to be a strong gal somehw. I wanna a holi to get away all dis.. i shall save more $$ , rather dun shop..enugh bao yang prdts le.. i even bot a big doggie bank in JB to motivate myself to save!

Yeah, Serene sis coming bac this friday..me n feli meetin her this sat.. so happy and missed her so much..looking fwd to our meet ups! She wanna him2 and GQ to come along ..i told her wont happen de la! Hurhur!
Pardon me if my entries are here and thea..as in out of point or jump here and thea.. i oso type until i lost liao =.=