Cannot imagine i bck after 1 mth! Ha..Shanna has been my die-hard fan of my blog..well due to i everydae busy @ work and studies..when i reali wan find time to update: MY COM DWN! Only todae den UP..i oso no time to care haha...by the time reach hm dun even wan see com lo.
Lotsa things remain the same for this 1mth... jus dat meet biaomei and Darius lesser cos new proj comin up and i reali gt more passes to do..well my work process has been cut dwn by Boss and i am been tasked more "siong" tasks..like attending board meetin with boss, write mins , secretary chores, and nw i am slowly bein trained to noe abt our safety operations so that i can help my engineers and officers with their paperwork! Pay still same...why why why... ?!!!
2wks ago...i finally cannot tahan "HIM" and called to scold him..be it is to encourage him or wad...i even resort to lying that i hav went ovrs for training and he is so persistent to call me. I really #%#% jia lat jia lat when he says w/o me he duno the meaning of life and duno wads is to move on..i heard le ..damn boiled lo..and began to take dwn my "gd temper" moment and told him off...if he reali think this way..he better go die le.. I will pity his family lor! I noe its harsh to him and i rarely treat him lidat..but he is beyond hope! I am reali so glad i hav moved on..well work n studies are the main distraction..@ 1st i will still tink and cry over him, no appetite, see a couple on street i will be emo...nw slowly slowly...after throwin away all memories, old stuffs, soft toys frm him...i began to slowly adapt life w/o him..

I nver expect i can do this..and yet i hav done it..he pissses me off more than anything nw~ this will be the last time i gg to say abt HIM...he shall perish with all my old stuffs..of cos i oso hope he can find his happiness and reali move on frm thea..even those of his frens i bumped into all say i hav made the rite choice..see see...tsk tsk...speechless rite~ =( I noe i hav changed my tinking and i am proudly to say here "I DUN LOVE HIM ANYMORE".
Ya..talking abt work..some sub-cons still nt used to the new working procedures and i am trying my best to convince them using my charm haha. Boss told me initially gg to be a lady safety offr but nw bac to sq 1... i am the PRINCESS once again hurhur~ everyone reali dotes on me..my only motivation to go work~ hee =) Really hav gd rapport with my 2 young Bangla engineers and keep teasin me with "HIM" haha.
THIS IS MY 1ST TIME CONFESSIN IN MY BLOG abt 2nd HIM.. dun be shocked cos i oso cannot accept in the 1st place..~ mixed feelings~ NW its considered settled dwn! =p

Hmm well recently my mood reali brightened alot..thanks to another "HIM" whom I got to noe few mths ago helps to distract me alot alot..cos always givin me extra work and "attention" haha.
Haha..i tot besides the old "HIM" i wont hav any feelings for any1 easily..well it happened last mth.. and strangely it jus happen lidat "unintentionally".. i choose to jus move on and enjoy "the process" and i am contented oredi cos we wont hav any outcome..to be liked someone @ work for this period is such a wonderful feelin be it real or fake..at least i still noe i still hav mkt value after so long..Thank you for helpin me to divert my attn on u though u are leavin the yard soon - "Ah du" ! ^_________^ I will nt forget our "drama sms-es" and had a conflict ..till nw.. haha..nope me n him nt togther le.. called it "AI MEI" and as Trish described " Zui Shou Xi de Mo Sheng Ren" ...cos me n him only close when sms..other den work issues.. we dun call each other due to his workplace and we hav to lie low! I like the way he disturbs me haha.. reali hope he can come bac look for me as he promised..so happy to see him each time lo esp last fri when my dept was invited by his office to join in the 7th mth prayer and lunch..reali so "drama" and our actions are so "unnatural" that kind of feelin reali hard to describe ..nt LOVE but its jus wantin to hav a look @ him and dats it haha. I dun LOVE HIM cos after my previous rs...i only giv my love to my chummies noein they all deserve it =) I jus enjoy this process duno when it will end soon! Sometimes the feeling he gives me is so serious & i am taken aback but no matter hw i am still noein wad i am doin~ nt to worry~ its like history repeating somehw in some way~ yrs back.. dun wish mention here! =(

Only hope i dun wake up so soon... - tinking about this song - WAKE ME UP WHEN SEP ENDS?
Its nt rite ..but nothin is logical esp feelin.. my close frens whom i almost everydae contact will noe wad happen.. ! Its better off den i cry myself to sleep and drippin on my lavender aromatherapy oil on my pillow every nite...so pls bear with my nonsense dear frens.. i promise i will recover soon@.. so no need knock sense into me nw! Y him ? cos he is the only chinese sub-con younger manager dat can click with me lor.
~stay tuned to my new blogskin le"

PS : no new pics cos long time no go out hiao le